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Classic case of overeating on healthy food today. Salad, chicken chili and then grapes. Now I’m going to pop lol This feeling used to really upset me. I’d feel like a failure, and go to desperate measures to get rid of the food. Ugly truth behind bulimia: purging only rids the stomach contents of primarily fiber... which of course isn’t a weight gainer at all, in fact quite the opposite. Absorption of nutrients happens primarily in the mouth- ESPECIALLY in bulimics. Amylase is an enzyme responsible for food absorption, and it gets to be increased 2,000% in bulimics as our bodies figure out how to survive despite what we are doing to it. I am so relieved to be free of this addiction, to being able to accept my feelings of fullness and feelings of everything else without hurting myself in that violent way. I over ate on grapes. I understand that it doesn’t feel good, but I’m not crawling out of my skin as a result. I am so grateful for my recovery, and everything I went through was just so that I can have this incredible life now.
There was a Halloween candy mishap at the credit union today, and I had 10 fun sized pieces of chocolate. I logged it, made a joke to my loan Officer, and came home to have a wonderful salad. I don’t sabotage my entire day after one little sidestep. I am still under in calories consumed versus output.
Today everything feels so wonderful, and yet I have a 7/10 pain scale headache. Time to call it a night way early. I hope everyone has had a grand Monday, and please do something kind for yourself today.
Diet Calendar Entry for 22 October 2018:
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1562 kcal
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Fat: 35.16g | Prot: 59.16g | Carb: 241.32g.
Breakfast: Milk (Nonfat) . Lunch: Apples . Dinner: Weight Watchers Chicken Taco Chili, Green Olives, Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables, Tyson Foods Boneless Skinless Chicken Breasts. Snacks/Other: Sun Chips Original, Grapes (Red or Green, European Type Varieties Such As Thompson Seedless) , Beer, Snickers Minis Mix, Snickers Minis Mix, Twix Twix Minis (3). more...
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