I am a 46 year old woman that struggle's with weight and introductions. At this time I am 165 pds and on Atkins's diet . I lost approx 10 pds. I am small boned and petite, however I was violently assaulted and gained over 200 pds a total of 270pds and within a year, my body revolted and I had operation and lost over 200 pds and dying at 78 pds. They reversed the operation and took a foot and half off of my intestines. I slowly gained back and was happy between 125 to 135 and again (I have a problem picking boyfriends) I was assaulted and gained 40 pds this past November 2014.I ate my feelings to 174 and I am now at 165. I exercise and walk everyday for 1 hour 3 miles. I do at least half hour of Pilate and 30 mins of
yoga( relaxing kind). I am not loosing weight. My carb intake is less than 20 net carbohydrates a day. I feel frustrated, picked on by God, That I am different from the whole wide world and that I can never loose the weight. I know ...Sound like a huge ego but that is how I feel. Appearances are unfortunately in society important. I am use to having people generously complementing my looks but at this weight,I hear less and less. I feel terrible and my self esteem is low. I promise I will send a pic of me when I get down to my weight. I dont know if I can place a semi nude pic of me at 90 pds after I had that operation, to warn others that they to can get as sick as I was. Oh another factor of why I was also small is I am a recovering heroin addict and alcoholic and I have been clean and sober for a good while . Eating is also an addiction and I just love food and I crave sugar.