I have reset this fatsecret diet so many times. A bit more than a year ago when I joined fs I lost 12kgs. I was also in an abusive relationship back then, so when I got out of the relationship I couldn't stop eating and gained all the weight (and a bit extra) back again.

I have also quit smoking a few months ago, so I can't control my appetite.

What scares me is that when I look in the mirror, I see that girl again whom I have left behind a long time ago. A girl who was depressed, emotional and out of control. I hate that person and I am so disgusted every time I look in the mirror!

I seriously need to gain control again before all is lost. I need serious support from the fatsecret community this time - not for advice, as I know exactly what I am suppose to do. I just need support.