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08 September 2008

08 September 2008

07 September 2008

06 September 2008

so this is basically a journal to get out some of my pent up feelings out because i don't feel like i can talk to anyone about them at the moment (feels very emo ;P )

I feel really up and down at the moment, i've kind of felt like this the past few months. ever since my ex and i broke up back in may/june i just feel more and more empty. it was fine untill he started back at uni and we stopped talking as much, everyone says that that's a good thing because it means i can move on but what they don't seem to get is he was my best friend. he saved me and looked after me so many times and he was there for me and now i don't have that, i mean yes i have my best girl friend who i see every so often and it was great when she was back in town but now she's gone and i feel so alone and empty again. The 'friends' who are left in town are the wasters and haters who brought me down last time. i don't want that to happen again i REFUSE to let that happen again.

I'm moving to London in 9 days for university and i know i shouldn't be scared. i've done it before and i was a lot less confident then. but i know this is my last chance i cant fuck it up this time, i have to stick to it. I just can't get over the fear of meeting all these new people how do i know i wont fall in with the wasters and fuck ups again, and what if my flatmates are mental! what if they think i'm mental! what if i can't enjoy it because i'm still crying over him.

so many what if's and no answers!

i need to stick to my diet and i need to feel whole again because at the moment i feel like half a person and im already very small. if there was only half of me, there would be nothing at all!

so yeah rant over i guess many new and confusing days to come.

06 September 2008

today was meant to be my day of getting back on track but i slept in again!!!! i don't know whats wrong with me i'm so tired at the moment its crazy. I was meant to be going to Ikea today with my mum (she's been promising for weeks) this is the last weekend i can go because next weekend is the weekend before the move so i need to have everything ready. but she decided that she is going to be in a mood with me and refuse to go. it sucks i need a load of stuff and there's no way i can afford it if i go into town :( its really thrown me off and put me in a bad mood i'm going to go and try to have lunch and feel better but at this rate it will be another bad day grrr!


EDIT

ok so this morning i felt rubbish but then i got off my arse and went to ASDA and got my things for uni and then came home and made a nice low GL meal :) im feeling good

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