Day 24 is it? I think so ... close enough.
Weight was 201.8 this morning. Yes ... down a bit. I was a bit lower on calories yesterday ... just sort of worked out that way. I have no clue if that had anything to do with the decline though. I've been "low" on calories before and had an "up fluct." I have been paying attention to calories as well as to fat/carb/protein ratios in my eating. It is so funny ... some days the scale shows a decline after a higher than average calorie day. All I know is that it is important to continue putting one foot in front of the other and eventually ... if we are being properly kind to our bodies, they will sort themselves out. At least that is my theory.
Cold again. 13 out this morning. Only 54 in the house!!! I didn't come downstairs last night to put more wood on the stove. Guess I should have. It looked like hubby "tried" to get a fire going when he got home this morning at 4 am but it wasn't burning very well by the time I stumbled downstairs at 6 am. It's burning nicely now and we're up to 59 in the house now. Hot flashes betray me. I had no idea it was that chilly in the house!!!
Hubby's weekend starts NOW. He doesn't have to go back to work until Tuesday afternoon. It was a long first week of plowing for him. Only 4 days but a lot of hours and challenging weather conditions. I hear rumor it is supposed to get even colder this weekend!! YIKES!! If it does get as cold as they are predicting, hubby has already informed me that he'll make the drive to the airport to pick up my mother while I stay here and keep the home fires burning. Wise idea, since we haven't been able to train our Doberman to stoke the fire yet.
I finally got the letter/report done I needed to do yesterday morning. I can't believe I spent so much time on it. A whole day of work at home and a morning in the office? Geesh. I brought home work in case I felt inspired to do a little this morning while hubby sleeps. So far I am more interested in goofing off but it is still early.
I would take some pictures of our snow if I could locate my camera. Where did I put it? I suppose I have to actually look for it to find it, right? Why can't I just visualize it and it will appear in my hands??? LOL!!!
Other than gathering my mother from the airport I have no idea if we will do anything else this weekend. Oh, yes, there is always laundry, dishes to wash, that sort of thing ... but I mean something FUN. I do need to make my Thanksgiving shopping list AND tend to the budget again to see where we are ... but neither of those things sound particularly FUN. I know ... writing a fatsecret journal and reading is FUN!!!
Speaking of fatsecret ... I am nearing my 3rd anniversary ... sometime in January I will be celebrating 3 years here ... crazy, huh? This last year has been more of a challenge weight wise. The first year the pounds flew off me ... the first 32 lbs. in 9 weeks I think. By summer I was maintaining around 180 ... even saw 179 and 178 on the scale a couple times. The second year I did okay too, until the latter part of it when I started to gain a little ... but this third year has been a little more challenging. I managed to get my weight down to 189 prior to a 2 week Mexico vacation in March 2011. Unbelievably ... I came back with only a 6 lb gain ... up to 195 (not bad for 2 weeks of drinking and enjoying myself!!) I didn't pay attention well after that though and I have been hovering in the low 200's ever since.
I have to say though ... even with a re-gain I've done much better this time than I ever have before in my life. I believe fatsecret has something to do with that, the journaling, the consistency, the community. I know that I have written before that I felt like a "failure" for gaining weight back. I don't anymore. But it was through the process of being able to say those things "out-loud" (so to speak) and have the support, encouragement, smacks up against the side of my head by my buddies here that brought that about. I kept coming back because I had made friends here ... and that kept me more "honest" about myself and my weight.
I also think I've really taken to heart the concept of practicing kindness to myself. I truly believe it makes a difference. So, this time I actually could acknowledge how crappy the crappy food was making me feel. I acknowledged to myself that I deserved to feel better and take better care of myself. I am NOT kind to myself all the time ... but I am so much better able to catch myself when I begin to degrade or beat myself up and stop it.
Don't know what started me on this long diatribe .... sorry!!! LOL!! You know me ... I can talk. Maybe it was just considering what I am grateful for. While I do it nearly everyday, with Thanksgiving approaching and almost the beginning of another new year perhaps that is the reason? Who knows!!!
I am of course GRATEFUL ...
1. Hubby home safely after driving in crazy winter weather on crazy winter roads (snoring contentedly upstairs!!)
2. It is beautiful ... the snow ... absolutely gorgeous. Clean, fresh, bright!!
3. Perspective. When I lose it, it is painful. When I regain perspective it lightens my heart and rejuvenates me.
4. A warm fire, a hot cup of coffee, and a hearty breakfast!!
5. THIS community here ... "old" buddies and "new" ... those who I haven't chatted with in months or years and those who faithfully show up nearly everyday ... I NEVER knew I needed you ... I know now and am so grateful for your presence.
Oh that makes me smile. I'm not someone who "needs" easily. Terribly independent. Stubborn perhaps to a fault. I can do it myself!!! Perhaps stuck in toddler-hood (imagine a 2 year old telling her parents ... Me do!!! Me do!!!) or adolescence??? LOL!!! Cyberspace makes sharing easier. Being older helps too (for me anyway). Always fought the idea of going to a "support group" ... but here I am in the midst of the ultimate support group!!! Of course it helps that you don't have to attend at any particular time, day, or drive to get here!!! Too funny.
Time to stoke the fire, perhaps actually look for the damn camera, and cook breakfast. I am thinking bacon and eggs this morning. Bacon sounds good. And of course ... continue to journey along my path, practicing kindness towards myself, practicing patience (again, not a strength of mine), believing that I am indeed worth patience, kindness, love, and taking care of myself. Have a lovely weekend ... I'm sure I'll be around some ... take care my wonderful friends!!!
My Weigh in Report
You lost 0.6 lb (0.3 %) since you last weighed in on Thursday 17 Nov 11.
At that rate it will take you about 3 months to get to your goal weight.
Silly I know but I like what the calculator said today about 3 months to goal rather than 16 months. It is one thing I wish fatsecret would fix!!! LOL!!!
Found the camera. Battery dead. Charging. Maybe pictures later.
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