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For the past two days I've been in a total FUNK. And I haven't enjoyed the pleasure of being around me. I totally lost an account that I thought I had based on the prospects actions. Basically I got taken..again. And I'm trying to figure out how to prevent that in the future...and it happened again yesterday. So yesterday, had I had alcohol in the house, I would have partaken to take the edge of sharp attitude off. Instead I ate, because I didn't have alcohol. I also decided I needed REST. And I actually remembered to take my vitamins yesterday too. Woke up this morning with my right arm COMPLETELY asleep. So instead of the alarm (well, 2 had already gone off), I woke up with a dead arm. But you know, it got me out of bed, and worked out. And it was good.
I'd had a couple of friends analyze why I hadn't lost any weight. To me, it just seems that my body is fighting hard against my efforts. Christine, Vickie, and Shanna (two out of the three are personal trainers) believe I need to increase my calorie intake. I did -- quickly. It's easy to increase, but difficult to cap it off. Which is where I think I am now. I ate crap to get the extra calories. I ate mindlessly. And I'm not happy that I completely have sabotaged my efforts. This is a LIFETIME thing. Not a 30 day or 60 day, or even 365 day change.
I guess with our world of "quick, no-wait, instant" everything, it's hard to just see how LONG it takes to rid ourselves of our fat. Our past. It's great on one edge of the coin to see others being successful...but it's also discouraging.
I measured myself the other day...and NO CHANGE. It was frustrating. Nearly heartwrenching. Until someone asked 'how much weight have you lost?' Amazing how much those 6 little words can lift you out of the muck and mire! I was elated,...it was the little boost I needed to confirm the things I was doing was right. I was on the right path....well, up until yesterday. I decided to take a quick side trip to Pityville.
But today is another day. I've started off right...with working out. I've asked for 1/2 today off. I just need time to regroup. I decided to watch a movie last night. It was nice. I took no phone calls last night. It was nice. Today is a new day....I'm moving forward.
Diet Calendar Entries for 17 July 2009:
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753 kcal
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Fat: 8.28g | Prot: 13.73g | Carb: 155.76g.
Breakfast: water, mixed fruit, dole, Maple syrup, sugar free, Multi Grain Waffle, Eggo (1 waffle). Snacks/Other: cucumber, apple, California Calimyrna figs, splenda, non dairy creamer, coffee. more...
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2902 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Turbo Jam - Cardio Party - 43 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 57 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Turbo Jam - 20 minute workout - 20 minutes. more...
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