lovelife3318's Journal, 30 July 2021

I'll keep you in prayer. I'm sorry you're going through that 

I understand the feeling of emotional drowning. I've had a bit of a cruddy few weeks myself. I know I should say 'keep smiling' but I feel like crying and whining and it is okay if you do to. We can be strong tomorrow. Best of luck to ya.  

I don't want to write you a novel but there's so much to be said here. There's nothing wrong with letting them know. I'm still working on that part myself. It sure takes the weight off of you to reach out and express that you're hurting. They would probably love that. So that they can tell you this to shall pass. I know it's easier said than done. But you'd feel so much better finally letting them in on what's bothering you. I went through a rough couple years over a bad business transaction involving litigation. Suffering with some depression and ptsd from that episode. I finally let people in and I've never felt better. Also faith is a big part of it. Believing when it's hard to keep going is key. At the end of the darkest tunnels there's a glimmer of light. That light will guide your heart and soul. I'm sending well wishes and strength your way! I believe there's a reason I saw this and a reason why I'm sending this response to you! God bless! 

Thank you all so much! I'm planning to share the cancer possibility tonight. I just hate feeling like a burden.  

Allow your family to rally by your side. It will help everyone have a chance to rise to the occasion to be supportive to you.  

Keeping you in my prayers 

Blessings on you! 

Please talk to someone you can trust. Hopefully you have a family member you can confide your struggle with. If not, a professional can be very helpful. This is not something you should be going through alone. Thinking of you and wishing you strength.  

Your NOT a burden. Your a human being that needs compassion and support! Speak to someone soon. 

Yes, I agree with Beauxpurdy. Please talk to someone you trust and seek counseling, talk therapy coupled with meds is very helpful. You have the meds but you need the talk therapy as well, holding all of those emotions/feelings/thoughts inside of you is triggering your depression and your hormones, diet changes, all the changes you are feeling. Peace and blessings to you! 

Stressfull time right now. ❤ Breaking down, knowing you will get up again, is being strong. Crying, knowing that you will stop at some point, when you are done, is being strong. Being strong is whatever you define it as. Not all you think will be there for you, but those who are meant to be will, in their own way. Allow others to be a blessing for you. You'll figure it out. Right now it's about taking care of yourself on every level. Sending you prayers. ❤ 

Mood if very related to sleep and gut health. I can always tell if I get a bladder infection because it is the only time I have felt suicidal. 1) set a bed time and make your healthy breakfast the night before do it is easy to start the day right 2) play a game called 500 years ago. As you go through your day acknowledge the running water, hot water, transportation, phone, medicine etc and pretend you were in the 1500’s when you fell asleep and wake to the amazing easier world we live in. 3) you ARE a strong person but you need to prioritize yourself right now, choose 1 goal each day to help yourself. 4) it is ok to ask for others to care about you and I am very proud that you had the bravery to reach out to us. One day at a time. Keep checking in. 

I don't have any brilliant advice, but I feel your pain. I have always been strong emotionally and physically and came crashing down after 9 months of severe RA then a diagnosis of Stage 4 cancer. I was so depressed and didn't even want treatment. My children were shocked because 1) they had never seen me cry, 2) didn't know how sick I'd been and 3) never saw me give up on anything let alone myself. Please don't be afraid to ask for help and don't feel guilty for accepting help (and that includes medication for depression). I will keep you close to my heart. 

I don’t have answers or magical words that can wipe away this difficult time. But I can listen and acknowledge your pain. Keep sharing and reaching out where ever you are comfortable and supported. Take care of yourself. You are a beautiful person and deserve to be treated special. Give yourself the best self care. You deserve it. 

I can totally understand 

my prayers for you! 

get your 8 to 10 glasses of water for sure. yes, its a tough time. be gentle to yourself.  

will pray for you. 

No answers, just support! 💜🙏 

i have the same issues, it is hard count with me if you need advice or just wanna talk