madaboutmoose's Journal, 19 April 2009

MMmmmm, read your food diary, and that sounds like a scrumptious breakfast! lol I'm so glad you are doing so well and enjoying your food guilt-free :] I really, really need to do exactly what you are doing. I hate the feelings of having something out of the ordinary and totally going into self-destruct mode after I believe I have "messed up". I seriously cant get out of that mentality. Ugh! But I working on it, and I am so glad that you have gotten over it. I'd imagine its a huge relief, and brings a big feeling of accomplishment. You should be so proud of yourself for losing all the weight the RIGHT WAY! Anyways, relax today and enjoy this sunday  

LOL!!! Who says I've gotten over it????? I'm LEARNING it. I absolutely feel drawn to convince myself I have "blown it" and I might as well eat whatever I want today!!! I am practicing doing it differently and it is freakin' hard as hell!!! LOL!!! I feel a little panic in the pit of my stomach, I dread getting on the scale the next morning and if I didn't "lose" I tell myself ... "I shouldn't have ate .... " Those are the hardest things to change and the only way I know how to do it is to practice it. Kind of like falling off a horse or getting in a car wreck ... gotta get back in the game to overcome the fear I guess. Girlygirl I am exactly where you are!! You have EXCELLENT company!!! We are both going to make peace with ourselves, our appetites, our desires, and FOOD!!! We WILL grow, baby step by baby step and together we will become women who know how to be kind and nurturing to ourselves and not just to others. You have a fantabulous day my friend!!! 

You are evolving into what you need to do to keep your weight off for life. Your relationship with food is changing. I understand your anxiety about it all. You are eating a bit more and do not want to gain back all or some of this weight you have lost. But you have also learned a lot during your journey. You will be fine, you will not gain it back. This is Sunday, kick back and relax. You sound like you have good weather today. Here is my area it is more like a chilly, wet, fall day. Brrrrrr! I do not like this at all.  

Indeed ... thanks!! I am learning and changing my habits. It isn't easy but it is worth it. The encouraging words are much appreciated. I've been sucked into the dust bunnies in my house ... one cleaning project leads to another ... I'm ready to trash it all and start over ... ha! ha!  

I am sitting here laughing at your dust bunnies attacking you. One project does lead to another, that is what is overwhelming me but I had a full house this a.m. and early afternoon and I am beat so tomorrow is a new day to continue with my projects again. Later, :-0, that is a big yawn. I am going to bed early tonight.  

Hey if you start feeling guilty or worried about "blowing it" check out one of my "scroll down" diet calendars. I just got to the end of that 4 day bike riding extravaganza and I ate all of 4000kcals PLUS the last 2 days. I am going to pitch the weekly weigh in here again. I used to feel that dread about the daily potential for a "up" day. For me it happened even when I was good on the diet but ate in the evening late or even if I drank a ton of fluid at night. The next day 2 pounds up. That disappears with a weekly weigh in. As you venture into this new realm at some point, try it. Keep the Kcals you eat and exercise logs as strict as ever. Just weigh in less often. Go maybe 3 days to start or even every other. It will smooth out those bumps. I also find that when I weighed in daily it was easy to go "blow" a day. Which meant I had "blown my diet" which meant "scrap the whole thing"...Its hard to blow a whole week and therefore this way its hard for me to "blow my diet". Even when I "blow a day" a usually have a couple days to make it up. Just ideas and I've thrown them out there before....BTW: You're doing GREAT. 

Thanks Jim!! I'm feeling good & making progress! Funny how each of our individual minds try to trip us up isn't it? The daily weigh in is no good for you! Eventually I imagine I will move away from the daily weigh in but little by little I appear to be making peace with my buddy Frank. The daily weigh in still holds value for me. Maybe it always will ... time will tell. I like your idea though of moving just a few days instead of going cold turkey once a week!!! Heh! Heh! I DO look at your "scroll down" diet calendars! They are AWESOME!! In fact, it helped inspire me over the weekend as I enjoyed Steak and Eggs out with my husband and went on my cleaning frenzy at home. I thought to myself ... if Jim can do it so can I!!! You are a constant source of inspiration and encouragement!! I hope you had a great time bike riding!! ... the best to you!!