Egull1's Journal, 12 January 2020

Missing your weekly trajectories!! You stopped them? I always liked reading your stuff. Hope your absence doesn’t mean anything, hope you are well, but know you are missed. I valued your advice from day one! 🥰 

Awww, I figured people were sick of them - LOL. Maintenance is not very sexy. Believe it or not I still do them for myself wifey. I will have to start posting them again. Part of the reason I've been quiet is that I'm trying to wrap my head about what I honestly think about this whole "body positivity" movement going on. I'm talking about the extreme end where people like me who decided a transformation was needed and decided to take off excess weight are actually being accused of "body shaming" folks that do carry excess weight and feel "health at every size" is possible. It's a worm hole of a debate and when my mind starts traveling down it - I start to feel wary about posting where I'm at with health. Does that make sense? 

Egull, it’s people like me that need people like you!!! You have never shamed anyone. Goodness me!!! Post again! You have my full support! ❤️ 

Egull- I cannot get behind the embracing obesity and all sizes movement- even when I was much larger. I don't feel like it's healthy and I don't feel it should be celebrated though certainly not something to belittle. I like your muscles. You are very inspiring. I didn't realize people were being accused of body shaming- but wouldn't be the first time I haven't been aware of something transpiring. I love your pics!  

There's a difference between being mean & cruel in comments to someone that is overweight and promoting a healthy lifestyle. I get tired of the whole politically correct you're not allowed to just be you because you might offend someone. At the same time I have tried to become less judgemental of others.  

Egull, not body shaming just working at making yourself healthy!! I don't understand that. They are probably jealous of your success. You are working on an amazing you==do not let them get your down. I agree with Sherry the "political correct" gets annoying,  

Trying to be healthy and being proud of your successes is not shaming anyone else. Actually, I think it is inspiring, please continue to post. While I'm not ashamed of being fat, I'm certainly not proud of it. 

Nice drop!!!  

Nice drop 

Thank you so much, for every single one of your comments. Hugs and blessings to every single one of you. It's actually really nice to read reasonable perspectives on the whole issue. I don't go above or out of my way to body shame anyone. I think being exposed to the debate resonates so deeply because 84 lbs ago and about 5 years - I might have jumped on the same band wagon just so I could find a way to enable habits and coping mechanisms that were compromising my quality of life and well being. Did I know the quality of my life was being compromised by those habits? Yes, and no. On one end, I never dreamed I might be able do the things I do now (espeically, physically) with less weight on this form and increased muscle mass - And, that's with an MS diagnosis and TWO NUMB LEGS! How could I have known if I never visited or tasted the other side of this state of mind. On the other hand, part of me wondered what things I might be able to do with less weight, drinking less alcohol, using spare time to move and be active instead of just watch TV and recover from food comas. And, it took me a while to get my mind in the game, even after I started this journey. So, even though I can't bring myself to jump on board with the whole "health at every size" perspective, I get the need or desire to defend habits that have become a way of coping, healthy or not. I've been there, but needless to say - I'm thankful to be where I'm at now and won't trade it for the world.  

Beautifully said! ❤️