Haven't weighed myself for 24 days, +3 weeks
From the 19th of march, i don't know what happened (I'VE GOT TOO MANY ISSUES)
I was stuffing my face,
I noticed that i would eat a bag of Simba chips (125g) a day
I would eat pasta for breakfast, & lunch, sandwich and get home, make pap
I went back to that takeaway place i swore i would never go too (Vetkoek World 😭😭) THE GUILT!!! both the Guilt & Vetkoek didn't sit well in my tummy
There were days when i "OVER ATE" and got sick, i'd vomit
(ANOTHER DARK SPACE I DON'T WANT TO INVITE BACK INTO MY LIFE)
This went on for a few days, then came Easter weekend which was also horrible
I gained 5kgs - weighed myself last week
I freaked out cause i didn't want to go back to disappointing myself
I joined the Gym last Thursday cause i felt that would be the only exciting thing that will pull me out of the hole i was digging for myself.
Since i started gym, meal preps, Not sure if its the excitement of things or what, but its keeping me on track.
Few KGs down from where i was last Friday Morning - Feels amazing
Slowly taking things easy
Keep myself motivated
Talking to My sister, my partner & mom helps quite a bit
(they all have their issues with weight but all are under 70kgs)
All supportive, with my ups (excitement) and downs (snacking) and Hangry mood swings (MY POOR HUNNY)
