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Well tomorrow is my Gram's birthday, and it's still hard to believe 4 years has gone by since she passed. Not a single day passes that I don't think of her warmth, kind heart, and her amazing ability to make everyone around her feel at ease. She is one of the most amazing women I had the pleasure of knowing. In honor of her birthday I decided to finally do what I have been putting off for far to many years, which is get healthy. Weight is something that she always battled with, and inevitably it cost her life. I know she is up in heaven wishing for me to be smarter about my health, and this year I will give her the ultimate gift <3 I love and miss you Gram, but I know you are safe now...
When I was visiting my grandfather the other day I was looking at his frame that has each of my school pictures in order, and there was a huge jump from 6th to 7th grade. It all went down hill from there. Then a few years back I weighed 225 and remember thinking oh my god how did I ever let myself go this far. I was appauled. I had lost about 25 pounds at that time, and was so proud of myself. It stayed down around 200-210 for about a year or so. I then gained it all back plus. It's kind of funny to look back now thinking man to be 225 again. It would be a start.
I can remember in high school saying to my best friend "If I ever get that big shoot me or slap me" Just before my wedding I looked at her and said "Im that big now. She said yes unfortunately you are, so get your ass moving. It's been a few months since that and quite a few failed attempts. Even my husband is sick of my every other week trying to eat healthier. He too is over weight, and wants to get healthy. I know now more than ever I can not force it on him. I have to do this for me, and only be accountable for me.
My goal now is to have small attainable goals. Which is 15 Lbs every 6 weeks or so. That will put me at my goal weight in a little less than a year. I have clothes in my closet that I can not wait to fit back into just from like a year or 2 ago. Not to mention my post high school clothes. I also have a few things that have NEVER been worn. You know that whole, if I work hard it will fit in a month bull shit that I always told myself. Well NO MORE.
Signing off for tonight...
Diet Calendar Entry for 24 June 2012:
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3629 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Yard Work (gardening) - 2 hours and 30 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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