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I just don't give my self credit for handling life's challenges. And when I don't do that, I allow my pain ego to rip the daily crap out of me, allowing myself to get sucked into a corner............ugh! Sure don't like seeing that part of me in celluloid or the mirror fow sho'!
I did pretty well, no I did everything within my power back in 2009 and shed 10-15 pounds. I ended up injuring my left foot in the process. I didn't know it at the time but had plantar fasciitis from running. Then in June I moved out from Sean's. I stayed the summer with my sister while I started back as a mechanic at United.
Working 8 hours plus everyday with plantar fasciitis, not knowing what it was, standing on concrete floors, overhauling acft Integrated Drive Generators, weighing over 50 pounds, flipping them around and lifting them back and forth to the bench as needed...took its toll on my body.
In August 2011 I injured my knee at work and was stuck at home until now, still recovering from surgery and being immobile and very sedentary...at the perfect time...the holidays...which are in winter and for the most part...i think suck! It's a challenging time to stay active and control portions when you're just feeling hungry.
That was then...my knee is slowly getting stronger. This last month the pain has subsided substantially. I think it has much to do with the warmer temperatures. My knee and leg felt pretty bad when it was cold and or damp. The stiffness left me wiped out from all the effort it took to do anything.
So Looking back, I think that I didn't put on even more weight, is a feather in my cap. It has been a long winter. I wasn't able to move for November and December. The holidays were temptation galore and that I didn't eat myself into bliss I should be happier about that.
The big challenge right now is that I am well into being 54. My middle section is ...ok I'm disgusted with it. I carry my weight from my neck down to my knees. I used to be curvy and now I'm just bumpy. It makes me sad. I don't like it and it gets tougher every day. SIGH
I'm getting my gym membership over here at the 24hour and they have a pool. So water aerobics and strength classes will be on my agenda. I want to be stronger, healthier and firmer. I haven't been thin since before puberty...so I'm not even concerned about that. I do just want to be sturdier than I've been and because I do physical labor, I need to be stronger.
I do feel better and with the longer sunnier days, I am encouraged to be more productive and get my physical needs met too...one step at a time!
Diet Calendar Entries for 21 February 2012:
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1464 kcal
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Fat: 70.68g | Prot: 62.42g | Carb: 149.16g.
Breakfast: 100% Pure Maple Syrup, Lucerne Whipping Cream, Milk Choco Leibniz, Quaker Oats Oatmeal. Lunch: Sprouted Rye Bread, Salted Butter, Organic Free Range Jumbo Eggs, Shredded Mexican Four Cheese Blend, Sparkling Mineral Water. Dinner: Eating Right Fiesta Chicken, Cooked Asparagus (from Fresh). more...
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3115 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 40 minutes, Dance (square dancing) - 1 hour, Desk Work - 4 hours, Resting - 10 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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