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Good Morning!
This morning I woke up at 5am because my two year old was whimpering in his bed. I went in there and realized I had not closed their window all the way and he was chilly. Got him all bundled up and warm and went to crawl back into bed for another 45 minutes of sleep and I just felt restless. SO instead I went downstairs, pulled on my running shoes, put the dog on her leash and went out for a run before hubby had to leave for work and the kids got up and the madness started.
It was SO nice! It was so peaceful and quiet and still outside. Just the sound of my breathing and Daisy's collar jingling. I could really collect my thoughts and prepare for my day.
I start watching ANOTHER baby starting monday. She's 8 months old and will be coming 4 days a week. I already take care of a 10 month old and 2 year old 5 days a week, 12 hours a day, plus have my own 2 year old, 3 year old, 5 year old and 10 year old. I'm honestly dreading it, but we need the income. I've been so stressed out from just the thought of adding more madness to the mix, that I've had no motivation to stick with the plan. I'll have a few great days, and then a few horrible ones. Yesterday was a bad one. This morning when I first woke up I stepped on the scale and it said 156. That's FOUR POUNDS more than it read on sunday morning. I know I'm just all bloated and whatever, but this has got to end. It's not even like I eat a lot or anything, I just get bored and start munching on random stuff. We don't even have any real "junk food" in our house.
Anyways... last night I went out and again STOCKED up on Fat Flush stuff. My little sister is finally ready to start with me, so that will be helpful.
My mother in law gave me an Old Navy gift card for my birthday. I was going to "wait" to go shopping until I lost weight, but instead I'm going to go tonight and buy a pair of REALLY cute jeans in the size I want to be, and then hang them on my closet door. That way I'll see them everyday as motivation!
Well... the ankle-biters are attacking me for sitting down at the computer... gotta go!
Have a great day, everyone!
-Michelle
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I'm happy that you are really trying on the plan but you need to come up with a better way of dealing with your stress and/or boredom. When you are feeling either you must stay away from the food or you will never lose the weight (or worse, keep gaining). You seem to be stuck in this cycle of doing well, then sabotoging yourself, then beating yourself up over it, then recommiting. You need to find a way to stop the cycle. Have you considered going in with another mom to watch a number of children? That way you will have adult interaction throughout the day which may help with both the stress and the boredom. Just a thought. You CAN break this terrible cycle you've gotten yourself on, I know it.
15 Nov 07 by member: slease
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Wow, I give you credit. I think that if you develop a pretty regular schedule, and stick to it- with both the kids & the plan- you can do it- i know you can't "legislate" kids' naps, etc., but tonight why don't you start working on a schedule that you can refer to as a guideline- e.g.- feedings, naps, coloring, etc. & write in your ffp stuff- and try to use that as a guide- so there's less chaos. maybe that will help you
15 Nov 07 by member: wayiwas
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You should do a picture journal of how far you can get the pants on starting with the day you get them. Just like the lime green pants on that picture trail!
15 Nov 07 by member: DOOLEY
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WOW! You deserve an award! I think that morning run thing would be GREAT for you to do more often.
1. You need your agility when chasing down little teo and three footers all day! ; )
2. You sounded like you got really centered.
3. The endorphins are always a plus
4. It affords you some snacks that you don't have to feel guilty about because you got in such a good workout.
Since I have been running a bunch...I have had a glass of wine every night. I found those 3 musketeer MINT mini candy bars and they are only 20 calories each. I treat myself to about 3-4 day...even 7 if I need it! Not being such a food nazi has helped me to feel like I'm not FIGHTING with myself all the time! I hate that about dieting!
You can do it!! We're all behind you!
Happy Holidays~
LOVE - a fellow at home mom!!
03 Dec 07 by member: jasmine77
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