MinaNew's Journal, 23 February 2017

Ok. Lost some self control as cravings really bothered me the past two days. I will fully admit to eating for my emotions. Need to get this off my chest so hopefully I can get past it. Gained a pound in 2 days.

So lets talk about why I want to lose 33 lbs in 3 months. In 3 months, we will have paid off our last IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) and Frozen Transfer that we attempted last year. It cost us about $14,000. Last year we did 8 artificial fertilization treatments and 4 assisted cycles. Then we went for IVF (3 weeks of injections, procedure to remove egg - painful and lots of stuff afterwards). That failed..Then we did a frozen cycle with the last two embryos we had left from that IVF cycle. That failed. All the hormones and treatments took it's toll on me physically and emotionally.

In 3 month's time, I want to start the process of IVF again. Losing weight can contribute to a more successful attempt. I made the decision to lose 33lbs because it seemed like a healthy amount for that amount of time.

As for eating emotions: Yesterday, we went to a birthday party of one of my good friend's children. We are invited all the time to our friend's children's parties. I felt very out of place. What was the point of being there..I had no children to watch and take care of. I didn't belong.

Yea..I know that I was there because I love the little girl whose was the birthday girl and I wanted to celebrate her milestone. I just couldn't shake the melancholy feeling. It still persists today but I am trying to shake myself of it.

Anyway..if you made it this far, thanks for reading. My gym partner couldn't make it to the gym with me, so I did it on my own. 30 minutes on the elliptical. I don't feel better but I am proud that I did work out despite it.

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1202 kcal

Fat: 42.45g | Prot: 55.28g | Carb: 156.31g.   Breakfast: Sugar in the Raw Sugar in The Raw, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Skim or Nonfat Milk (Calcium Fortified), Chosen Foods Avocado Oil, Avocados, Fried Egg, Whole Wheat Bread, Tropicana Pure Premium Original Orange Juice. Lunch: Minestrone With Pesto Soup. Dinner: Sticky Rice, Tilapia (Fish), Miso Soup With Vegetables. Snacks/Other: General Mills Multi Grain Cheerios, Skim or Nonfat Milk (Calcium Fortified), Welch's Grape Jelly, Unsalted Butter Stick, Whole Wheat Bread, Oatmeal Chocolate Energy Bites. more...

2317 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 30 minutes, Elliptical - 30 minutes, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...