rwaller7483's Journal, 04 January 2017

It's been a while... Got no idea what I weigh right now and to be honest I'm not interested in finding out for a good while yet. All I know is I'm running out of clothes that fit and I'm tiring more easily so I'm back, I think my head's in the right place now. I'm hesitant to buy into the new year new me shtick. We've got to work on our health when we're ready, there's no fixed position for any of us to start from, don't know when how or why but for me, when it's time, it just clicks. New Year, I don't think is a great time to start. I do like the idea of a fresh start, new beginnings and all the rest of it but that's all it is, an idea. In reality, nothing's changed and I think when people do put pressure on themselves, when you can't watch go anywhere without seeing adverts for gym and slimming club memberships, I kinda feel like we're setting ourselves up for failure. Must be millions of people who'll join a gym in January and stop going by March. We'll be ready, but we'll be ready in our own time on our own terms.

The second half of last year was a disaster really. Like I said in the last entry, the hit and run was just terrible timing. I was doing so well until then and I'm certain there's no way I'd be where I am now if that hadn't happened. I was feeling good. So I spent a few months feeling sorry for myself and eating and drinking too much crap. I was finally able to get a new bike and start cycling again about three months after the hit and run. I had a scan not long after that which showed ligament damage and that the shin bone in my right leg had actually shifted. I could tell all the time I was waiting that the shape was just wrong, but I got fobbed off a few times until I had the scan. I've had physiotherapy since then which ended about three weeks ago. My leg will never be 100% again but I'm about 95%, it took ages till I could straighten it almost the same as my left leg but this is as good as it'll be now. I still get the odd twinge if I jerk it or I've noticed more, when it's cold. But this is it now. And truth be told, I think I probably could've done more exercise on it sooner, but it's the head that was the problem then.

Now I'm just looking forward to spring. I like the kind of exercise you do without really thinking about it, long walks in beautiful scenery. Not so tempting right now, but give us a couple of months when we've got longer, warmer days and that'll be good. I don't think I need to make many drastic changes to get back on track. Not sure I'll even bother joining a gym, I'm cycling to work everyday which is a decent workout in itself. Maybe just subtle things. Obviously cutting back on portion size - not necessarily cutting anything out, just less of it or less often. Less drinking will be good. Got a couple of breaks to look forward to, so we'll see. For now, I'll count my calories until I can brave the scales.

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1626 kcal

Fat: 44.34g | Prot: 47.21g | Carb: 257.69g.   Breakfast: Warburtons Giant Crumpets, Flora Buttery. Lunch: Flora Buttery, Weight Watchers Spaghetti, Tesco Toastie Thick. Dinner: Flora Buttery, Mayonnaise, Hard-Boiled Egg, Morrisons Wholemeal Bread. Snacks/Other: ASDA Low Fat Hazelnut Yogurt, The Fruit Factory Fruit String, Asda sweet and salted popcorn, Apples, Sun-Maid Raisins, Pears. more...

4961 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Housework - 1 hour, Desk Work - 7 hours, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 2 hours, Bicycling (moderate) - 13/mph - 40 minutes, Resting - 5 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...