DarkFairy0823's Journal, 06 September 2016

I hate to sound like tough love here, but you can make excuses or you can make progress. If you're committed to changing you, make up your mind, and stick with it, come hell or high water. We all have to deal with life as it comes at us. Focus on the stuff that's going right in your life. Even if it's just ONE thing. And give it all your attention. Change your mind, change your life. 

Yesterday was a really rough day for me no only am I sick like there's no tomorrow but it was my mothers birthday...she would have been 54. she died at 51 and though I should of looked at things differently and tell myself I don't want to die at that age I just let everything get to me. It is really hard to get me to break but when I do I feel like the whole world is coming down. I do want to change my life. I have seen a difference in me. My face is more clear, some clothes don't fit like they did. So though I haven't changed the scale much I know I am doing something to my body. I am sorry if I brought anyone down...it wasn't meant to do that. 

Thank ya'll and anyone else on here that has supported me! 

DarkFairy- First of all, I'm so sorry that you lost your Mom at such a young age. That's just terrible and sad. Second: I had a look at your food history, and I see that you are going with low fat. I highly recommend trying a low carb, moderate protein, high fat diet, like dietdoctor.com or Atkins. I'm not just randomly preaching here; I say it to you for a specific reason. I am a person who struggled for years with depression and I have conquered it. I attribute that victory in large part to getting the carbs, specifically grains out of my system. Sugars and grains make me depressed and fat. The fat part is addressed at this site, but the depression here is treated as a side subject. Yet, for me the two are inseparable. Try reading "Wheat Belly", it is a very eye opening book about the role of carbs in our mental and physical downfall. It might change your life. I wish you well; I know it's not easy. Try getting the carbs out. I think it will lift your spirits and allow you to carry on with more joy. 

I have been thinking about changing to a low to no carb diet there is so much wrong with my family that idk what to do. I have bad blood pressure and need to lose. my husband has high cholest and needs to gain. my oldest boy needs to grow and gain and my youngest needs to stay at his weight and then I have my oldest girl that needs to lose and my baby which just needs to be healthy. I get really confused. I want to make sure everyone gets what they need. Sitting down and seeing all these ppl eat things that I'm like omg I want that, drives me nuts. I will look into that book though for sure and see what it has to offer me. I do not get depressed often because I am so busy in my life that I don't have time to be able to be that way.  

Rough patch. If your current diet leaves you with hunger and cravings, there is no way to stick to it when you are stressed. Taking care of 4 kids will bring stressors all the time. It's good you are considering a low carb diet. Low carb in itself just gets rid of sugar and processed junk, which is a win for everyone. The family can eat what you eat. There is no need to bring chips, cookies, soda, snack cakes into the house. You are likely worried about feeding more fat to your husband, but really, the type of fat is the issue. It's OK to eat saturated animal fats and monounsaturated olive oil and also coconut oil. Vegetable and seed oils need to be avoided, as they damage the inner lining of blood vessels. Research, plan, experiment. Just don't give up. 

Don't give up. I agree with the above post. Hopefully, with 4 kids and a husband, you have the time to read everything you can get your hands on about low carb, wheat etc. I read Wheat Belly and got so mad. The lies that we have been fed, no pun intended, in my opinion were murderous. What I, unknowingly, did to my children and husband makes me want to go out and hit something or someone. But now I know better, I try to do better. Do I slip, Yes! But every time I get back up I really do better. I look at this as a learning curve. I slipped up bad this holiday weekend. Every day that went on, I could feel myself hurting more in my body and my mind. Gluten and sugar are evil to me. It has been 2 days since eating high fat and moderate protein and IF again. My mood is better and so are my muscles and joints. I wish I could get my daughter in laws mind wrapped around this. My grandchildren, son and she would feel so much better. She has bought into the dogma of low fat. I just want to ask her what has it gotten You? Are you any better than you were last year?". But I can't because a #### storm would happen. 

I work in a Juvenile facility - several actually-. Today I happened to be in the dining room at a girls facility and noticed that all the girls had rejected the healthy lunch with salad and sausages and they were all eating Nutella and Fluff on English muffins. Then I got them in my classes after lunch where they were all grumpy, sad and complaining about everything. Their brains are starved! I recently did some research on folate - the substance we derive from eating vegetables. Apparently it is essential for the production of neurotransmitters like serotonin, etc. that allow us to regulate our emotions and feel happy. They are not getting this! Instead they are on a hypoglycemic roller coster. After school they got snacks of huge frosted brownies! These are kids that are all in clinical treatment for behavioral issues, in a facility with 10 kids and three clinicians, who apparently don't know anything about nutrition! It all drives me nuts. I'm the gardening teacher, trying to teach them about vegetables - but even though the cook uses what we grow, the kids won't eat them! Tearing my hair out!