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Didn't bounce back as much as I feared...so I'll take it! :) Weight is good, not great for my height, but I'm ok with the lower number for now. Just need to work on my fitness level once I can get back into the gym and hit some weights. I might not be able to do anything hardcore like I want to or used to, but I'll settle for at least reestablishing a routine with light weight for now. Muscle tone is noticeable diminished..maybe only by me, but we are our own worst critic.
I forget that this is a public journal and people respond from time to time. Mixed bag in that I sort of bash myself on this thing and I wonder if people just read into it that I am pessimistic and a bit harsh which couldn't be further from the truth. Pleasant in the sense that its nice to hear from people who might relate, understand what your going through, or lend a word or two of encouragement.
I use this journal to vent my frustrations and angst well just like a real diary/jouranl, but my daily demeanor is ridiculously light hearted and happy and has been that way for almost all my life. The negative in that is that it can be hard to find motivation when you already content which is why I have to play my owns devils advocate and go searching for problems to solve.
I was a jolly happy fat guy once...Would have stayed that way had I not had a health scare that welp scared me straight. Now, I like the challenge to maintain fitness and my weight. I crave going to the gym and its part of my daily happy routine. Looking forward to getting that back...
Plan is to go back to routine on Wednesday and baby step it to any semblance of what I use to do or what I have to do now, I suppose. PG recreation center, those guys/gals in there are an awesome bunch and the community and comradeship I find there is priceless.
Side thought: I've always wondered if happiness is somehow genetically predisposed...My Grandfather has the same temperament, my father too. Happy go lucky the both of them with a very similar devil may care attitude. I might have wrote about these musings before, but I mull over things like this from time to time. Googling it yielded some interesting debates on stuff like the 5-HTT gene which may influence baseline levels of "happiness". This line of thinking might be a stretch for a weight-minded, calorie counting community. Side Side thought: I want to read Flowers for Algernon again....
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181.2 lb
Lost so far: 9.8 lb.
Still to go: 11.2 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 1.4 lb a week
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