Johanne's Journal, 06 November 2011

I saw this girl...she is wanting her 15 minutes...but that may be all she gets if she keeps that up...I have seen shows where these people die, all becuase they weigh over 500 pounds...but she is the first one that I know of that wants to get this way...so sad.... 

I would like to find this woman and smack her repeatedly about the head and neck... seriously it really bothers me that she is OK with this. I man I am stuck at the same weight.. and I am ok with that as I know other things are changing BUT it really does get to me that she is TRYING to gain more weight. she is obviously not thinking about the other people in her life.  

Johanne the load on her heart will do her in...she can't think for one minute that she is healthy... I hate it for her children as they have to live with it...Have a great day girl...☺ 

Hi Bren. Hi Lauren. Apparently there is a whole industry built around these super obese individuals and she is taking advantage of that. The horrible thing is, she truly is blind to the state of what it's doing to her and her children. Her expression never once changed during the whole interview/intervention. It was as if she was an automaton. It's hard to believe anyone could be that thick, although, if she's making enough money off of it, that may be all she cares about. Maybe she believes she has time to reverse the whole thing if she meets her goal and cashes in. It would just give me the creeps to know that strange men were getting off on watching me gorge and fling my enormous rolls of fat around. She and the others were actually draping parts of themselves over furniture. Ugh! 

Bren, that's the thing. She truly seems to believe she's perfectly healthy. It's like she's blind to the whole issue. I am in total sympathy with people who get huge, realize it will kill them and have so much trouble loosing it. I understand. It's so hard to give up what may be the only sensual thing you have in your life . . . food. But to actually go after such an unbelievable goal, 1800 lbs, is just ludicrous. The human body can't actually sustain that. My god, I have trouble lifting 30 lbs and yet I've lost 70. Olympic weight lifters would have trouble lifting her extra 500 some odd pounds. To add another 1000 to that . . . ? Bren you have a super day too. Sorry I've been missing in action so long. 

I can get the whole loving yourself no matter what (I think everyone should no matter their size etc.) But this goes beyond loving yourself, this goes to doing the extreme to get love, attention or anything else. I have sympathy for people who do get "super huge" and then one day are like oh god how did I get here I need help, BUT to do this to yourself makes me think that someone should intervene, declare her mentally unstable, get her children somewhere safe and get her some much needed help - even if she believes she does not need it. I honeslty believe people pay to see her/others doing this type of thing not because it turns them on (there may be a few out there it does and to each their own) but more for the morbid curiosity factor honestly.