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Not long after starting at the gym with the trainer I've already crashed and burned. Yesterday was tough. Mentally, I wasn't myself all day long. I couldn't find any motivation to work - which is unlike me. I had zero motivation to get my 10k steps. And I ate. I ate like crazy once again. I ate even when I wasn't hungry simply because I kept thinking that the taste of McDonald's French Fries would be really good at that time. I know that this is the behavior of a binge eater. And in the past I've received advice from people .... "you should try eating this instead" ... "find something else to keep your mind busy", etc. But I think that some people don't realize how hard it is to get out of your own head once you've started down that road of "needing" to have food. Just thinking about it makes me sad and disappointed in myself. But I can't let slip ups such as that one keep me down. Every day is a chance to start new and that's what I must do.
Today I have an appointment for another training session and I am now planning out my eating for the entire day. I will try my hardest to stick to just what is in my food journal. And I'm praying that my thoughts don't veer off course tonight and I once again find myself eating things my body doesn't need. It's a work in progress, people. I really wish it could happen overnight but alas - this all takes time.
Diet Calendar Entry for 22 April 2016:
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1828 kcal
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Fat: 60.20g | Prot: 115.61g | Carb: 205.49g.
Breakfast: Jimmy Dean D-Lights Turkey Sausage Breakfast Bowl. Lunch: Pork Loin (Tenderloin), Newman's Own Vodka Pasta Sauce, Linguine. Dinner: Pace Picante Medium Salsa, Market Basket Sour Cream, Great Value Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese, Perdue Grilled Chicken Breast Strips, Tumaro's Premium White Wrap. Snacks/Other: Joseph's Garlic Lovers Hommus, Market Basket Fat Free Petite Pretzels, Bananas, Chobani Chocolate Haze Craze. more...
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