Pearson16's Journal, 28 April 2016

I am almost at the end of week two with the small group training and I can honestly say that while it is so difficult to get through the half hour with the trainer, I enjoy it.  I feel the buckets of sweat running down my face and I actually feel like I'm accomplishing something.  Going to this new gym that is all women just gives me a sense of comfort that the regular gym didn't.

Tonight's workout was full body and I was with the male trainer, by myself because apparently no one else likes going to the gym on Thursday or Friday nights.  Not complaining, that only means that I get the full attention of the trainer and my workouts are that much better.  Let me tell you, he is TOUGH!  I get a little disappointed in myself when I can't make it through a full set without stopping.  But I also know that I have to walk before I can run.  I led and still lead a very sedentary life style.  Expecting myself to be perfect with every work out is only setting myself up for failure.  So for now I just push as hard as I can knowing that one day what I'm currently doing will be easy for me.  I look forward to that day!

The one thing I continue to struggle with is food.  I have to find the time to get rid of all junk food in the house.  Problem is: I don't live alone.  My fiance likes having junk around the house because he can simply go by without eating it until his "cheat day".  Meanwhile, I can't.  And yes, we've tried the whole "out of sight/out of mind" thing.  There's only so many hiding spots in a small apartment.  Eventually I come across the hiding place and I end up eating the junk anyway.  I think maybe now that he's successfully lost 70 lbs I can convince him that we don't really need the junk laying around the house.  That we can simply treat ourselves if/when we want it by only buying what we will consume that day and nothing more.  It's a long shot, but it's worth a try.

Today as I was headed out of the gym I had a moment where I thought to myself, come on - you can make it home without thinking about fast food, you can do this!  Because, if I'm being honest I have a hard time controlling my fast food cravings.  I do my workouts and then swing by a McDonald's and I know that's ridiculous and completely counterproductive but I have issues with food and cravings.  Issues that I'm desperately trying to control.  The good thing about today though: I actually thought to myself that the fast food would only ruin the amazing workout I just had.  And my brain immediately created a picture of a healthy plate of food.  I drove home and made myself some chicken with fresh green beans and a tiny bit of homemade cilantro lime rice that I had leftover from a previous meal this week.  I was proud of myself for not going by the fast food drive through.  It's a small victory but a victory nonetheless.  It would have been a perfect night if I would have been able to avoid the candy/junk laying around the house.

On a side note: 2 days with 10k steps so far!  I'm making it a point to get up from my desk at least once every hour to walk around my office.  My joints feel sooooo much better this way.  Sitting at a desk for so many hours a day really does a number on your body.  Funny how I didn't even realize it until I started paying attention to exactly how little movement I was getting in my day.

Anyway, tomorrow is a rest day and Saturday morning I'm back at the gym.  I am anticipating being very sore tomorrow.  Joy! 

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Pearson, first congrats on such a good workout! I too am sedentary with a desk job and I know how much drive it takes to get up and do something after 8 hours at a desk. Physically your body isn't tired - but mentally, you just want to go home and sit again. Good show on you!! Second MORE congrats on not doing the junk food on the way home. That is far more than a small victory! Food cravings aren't an easy beast to battle. Willpower simply isn't enough sometimes. Really thinking thru what you're about to do is the only thing that helps me in those cases. Unfortunately, I sometimes eat THEN think. You obviously did things in the proper order ;-)  
28 Apr 16 by member: Vickie 5966
Have you ever calculated how much money you have wasted on junk food? Why don't you put that amount in a jar every time you feel the urge( & you would have usually gone to McD) and after a while you treat yourself to a new smaller outfit ? :) 
29 Apr 16 by member: schmetterlinge34
Congrats  
29 Apr 16 by member: popsoym
@Vickie 5966 - Yesss, so many people don't understand the mental exhaustion one goes through. Thank you for your support!  
29 Apr 16 by member: Pearson16
@schmetterlinge34 - I haven't actually sat down and calculated the cost of what is wasted on junk food but I know it's A LOT. This is something that I've tried to use as a deterrent before and just didn't work. Perhaps if I actually sat down and crunched the numbers I'd be shocked enough to stop wasting so much money! A new smaller outfit would be amazing :) @popsoym - thank you! 
29 Apr 16 by member: Pearson16
Sounds like you're doing really well on exercise. I sympathise with not being able to resist junk. It's not my difficulty but I think we all have something that trips us. I think crunching numbers would be an eye opener and maybe help your resolve. My downfall is alcohol (as well as food, obviously). I do drink more than I should but what really drove it home was when my card company changed their website so you could see the retailers you paid within a pie chart according to sum spent. It looked like we were supporting our local pub single-handedly! Admittedly we were eating out there often too as the chef is brilliant but one (large) chunk of that pie was one place ... And even more than our grocery shopping each month 😳 Things changed pretty damned quick, I can tell you! Best of luck - you'll find a way to crack it in the end 👍 
29 Apr 16 by member: Phooka
@Phooka - Oh, wow! It would be awesome if all credit cards offered the same breakdowns/views. I'm sure it would be much easier to make the decision to skip fast food and take out much easier. For the time being I am challenging myself to no fast food for the month of May. Starting small just no MCD's, BK, Wendy's, etc. I'm hoping it will go well and after that I can continue to make small but necessary changes to my diet. 
29 Apr 16 by member: Pearson16
Pearson, you've got a great plan, congrats on the steps and workouts... start looking for a nice new outfit :)  
29 Apr 16 by member: Becca P

     
 

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