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I'm working hard to maintain a healthy state of mind ... I'm not sure I am being successful!! Since my weigh-in on Saturday, everyday, yes, every single day, my weight has increased. Despite exercise, despite reasonable intake, UGH!!! So I tell myself ... look back at your journal ... this happens a lot. This is just the rhythm of your body. You are still maintaining within a reasonable range ... nothing drastic has changed. Then I start to second guess myself ... panic is probably a better word. If I gain and I'm eating 1400 to 1500 calories and the "charts" say I should be able to eat much more what does that mean??? Am I destined to be fat???!!! All the old icky evil woman words come roaring back in my head. STOP I say. STOP!!!!
Breathe. In and out, deeply. Relax. It is only Tuesday. Your weekly weigh-in doesn't arrive until Saturday. Much could change between now and then. Of course I am not destined to be fat. If I was would I have been able to lose the weight I have? Nothing has changed. Your clothes are not snug. You do not feel bloated. You are drinking lots and lots of water. Relax, be still, do not panic.
And so on I go ... remembering that there is NO hurry. Remembering how far I have come. Remembering that I have maintained in this range much longer than I ever have in the past. Remembering scales are imperfect measurements at best. Thanks for listening ... sorry I'm not as positive as I like to be ... but I do feel better now ... after venting a bit!!! I'm hoping you all have a more centered day than mine!! Take care!!
Diet Calendar Entries for 11 August 2009:
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1544 kcal
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Fat: 33.82g | Prot: 117.54g | Carb: 180.39g.
Breakfast: Fiber One, water, medifast cocoa. Lunch: Yoplait Light Thick & Creamy Orange Creme, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Alpine Lace Light Provolone, Sliced Roast Beef. Dinner: Simple Neo-Tuscan Boule Bread, Newman's Balsamic Dressing, Original Iceberg Garden Salad (Zip), tomato, cucumber, Halibut . Snacks/Other: nectarine, Beer, Perrier, Marathon Nutrition - Dark Chocolate Crunch. more...
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2966 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 10 minutes, Precor Elliptical - 38 minutes, Driving - 2 hours, Desk Work - 9 hours, Resting - 4 hours and 12 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Your last paragraph says you are back in a good place, a good frame of mind. Now stay there. :-)
11 Aug 09 by member: WECANDOTHIS
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Eventhough, I am glad to know that I am not the only one wanting to rush the process-- I want you to know that there is NO hurry. You have came very far and deserve to enjoy the process of being this healthier person. Enjoy it.
11 Aug 09 by member: Deana Garcia
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When I first started losing, I weighed in everyday. (I still weigh in everyday I can) I would fluctuate up and down and I just focused on the one day weigh in. Somewhere along the way ever single weigh in mattered, and like you every up brought my mood down (panic). Thinking back I remember, being new to the diet I would say ok, work on bringing that down and then some by Thursday, I'm fine. But now, when I would worry about every weighin I found it harder to bring it down. Weird huh. I haven't been able to lose the last five... I'm in a rut of every week trying to just get to the same low. I need to find that mindset and push harder and farther. Don't give up, and telling yourself to stop the panic mode/relax is the best thing for you. Its really about the little things you can control right now. I'm working on it and conquering other goals as I learn to conquer the last five. You have done amazing 60 pounds... is AWESOME.
11 Aug 09 by member: cindyshine
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Me too! I think it's a gravity quirk.
11 Aug 09 by member: abbadabba
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Three weigh-ins at a higher weight, stressful? Only because you believe it. A single low day will bring you right back down and balance out the caloric intake as well. Trust the math and set yourself free. :-)
11 Aug 09 by member: information
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Thanks everyone!! This "mind" thing is harder than the losing the weight!!
11 Aug 09 by member: madaboutmoose
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11 Aug 09 by member: cindyshine
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The phrase I like best in your journal today are the words "rhythm of the body." What if the scale did not exist? What if the ONLY way - as opposed to "weigh" - we could determine how well we are doing was by LISTENING to that rhythm? That natural ebb and flow is going to pull our bodies up and down the way the moon pulls on the tides. That explanation makes absolute sense to me as I respond to YOUR journal intent on ENCOURAGING you. My response to my own real life scale - however - is not so idealistic. It is so easy for me to say to you, "You are doing fine" when I say to myself "Get on the ball!" As always - I learned from your entry today!
11 Aug 09 by member: poet-in-motion
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What would I do without my buddies??? Again ... thank you so much!!
11 Aug 09 by member: madaboutmoose
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You are so right. There is no hurry. It took me a looooong time to realize that my weight is not going to come off as quickly as I thought it would so it's not worth stressing out about it. Take it one day at a time. :-)
11 Aug 09 by member: mbhpro
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You are right on. I feel the same way. Keep up the good hard work and dont give up. You can do it, we CAN do this.
12 Aug 09 by member: yogamama3
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I am soooooo excited. I just decided not to weigh in every day. Did you join the anti scale strike too? We are not numbers. We are superior to our account numbers, ID numbers, adjusted gross income, SAT scores, or shoe size. Right? I am woman - hear me roar! He-he-he-he!
12 Aug 09 by member: poet-in-motion
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I have not joined the "anti-scale strike" I am simply working on not letting the numbers "control" me. I know for ME that the scale helps keep me honest and it is a tool I need to make peace with!! But what works for one sure doesn't work for everyone!!! I do agree though, we are so much more than a number and it is difficult to steer clear from letting the numbers determine how we feel about or perceive ourselves as a whole!
12 Aug 09 by member: madaboutmoose
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