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I must tell you ... that evil woman almost convinced me!!! But I did get on the scale this morning and saw a 10.2 lb. spike in my numbers. If you look at my chart you won't see it there yet. I will put it in ... just not today. This is my third experience with vacationing and having the spike. I am fairly confident that it will come back off relatively quickly. I know I consumed much more sodium than I usually do. I also drank less water while I was away. That seems to happen with regularity when I am travelling. I am painfully aware of how quickly I could revert back to my old habits. I am ... at heart ... a junk food junkie!! I know all that greasy stuff and sweet stuff isn't particularly good for me. And while a little of it tastes great a lot of it actually makes me feel sick. And yet, I KNOW that I would and could force myself to become accustomed to that "sick" feeling again. Is that twisted? Can any of you relate? I am consciously choosing not to become accustomed to feeling poorly. I have healthy foods at my disposal and I am ready to have my body feel better again. I feel fairly satiated with the junk foods I enjoyed. I am not craving more.
I suppose time will tell if my fondness for junk food and my propensity to overeat will ever fade. So, what do I feel good about today? I feel good about chatting with Frank this morning and not feeling depressed about the spike. I feel good about enjoying myself without beating myself up and having regrets. I feel good about writing the truth and not avoiding my buddies.
Flaxseed ... if you are reading this I have thought about you and your post-wedding experiences with your own eating. I hope things are going smoother for you now that you are back home and hopefully into your new found healthy routines.
Info ... I have also thought about you! Your ongoing journey continues to help me maintain focus. I love that you share with us when you indulge in one of those apple fritters and also when you choose to cut way back!! Your dance around the blue line, your lack of berating the food you chose and yourself has helped me to be more matter-of-fact about my own journey.
Jim ... your gentle prodding to "slow down" and to "be honest" and the Pirsig quote has given me much food for thought. I still read the quote you posted. "...each footstep isn't just a measn to an end but a unique event in itself..." "... To love only for some future goal is hallow. It's the sides of the mountain which sustain life, not the top. Here's where things grow. But without the top you can't have anys ides. It's the top that defines the sides. So on we go .. we have a long way ... no hurry ... just one step after the next ..."
My heartfelt thanks to those buddies mentioned and those unnamed. I know that I would not be in the frame of mind I find myself in without your encouragement and support!! This will be an interesting week ... detoxing from vacation, getting back into my routine, paying attention and making conscious choices!! Have a great day!!
Diet Calendar Entries for 29 July 2009:
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1385 kcal
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Fat: 29.50g | Prot: 106.99g | Carb: 187.95g.
Breakfast: water, medifast cocoa. Lunch: ham, 2% Cottage Cheese, deli turkey slices, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Yoplait Light Thick & Creamy Peaches & Cream, light swiss cheese - deli slices. Dinner: Golden Roasted Turkey Breast - Complete Meal. Snacks/Other: Marathon Nutrition Bar - Dark Chocolate Crunch, Special K Protein Bar Honey Almond, Fiber One. more...
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3134 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Precor Elliptical - 46 minutes, Driving - 2 hours, Desk Work - 9 hours, Resting - 4 hours and 14 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Yes, it's amazing what we'll put up with (feeling bad) for the love of junk! Glad you're back and in control. You deserve to feel good, and know how to do that. I'm SURE your spike is NOT real weight gain. Once you hydrate and flush the sodium out, it will come back down some. Great job not beating yourself up and moving on! Just what I'd expect from you! :)
29 Jul 09 by member: amryk
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Thank you Amy ... your comment made me smile!!
29 Jul 09 by member: madaboutmoose
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I totally agree with Amy. Carol, vacations happen, they are a part of our lives and I know you will get right back on track, you already are. :-)
29 Jul 09 by member: WECANDOTHIS
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Its ok. I came back to Alaska with a 2lb gain but still 7 from where I was. We had comfort food all week at the kids camp and tons of junk, not a lot of water either so I was very dehydrated and swollen when I came home. Its coming off fast now, thinking it was a lot of water weight. I know you will do the same. Dont be hard on yourself, like you have told me this is a journey. Glad to be back in touch with ya. take care.
29 Jul 09 by member: yogamama3
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10.2 pounds! Not to worry, you *know* it's not a problem at all, piece of cake (have you seen my chart lately? :-) ). Although, I would venture to say that it's better to be just a plain old junkie than a fast food junkie. ;-) In Asia, you often see monks doing Walking Meditation (many variations). It sometimes takes them a minute or two just to complete one step, and they do it all day long just to emphasize and remember the point you make above. I, thoroughly enjoyed your so very clear journal entry today. And thanks for your comments.
29 Jul 09 by member: information
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one of the books I read this summer described having a FOOD HANGOVER which is - of course - similar to having a hang over from alcohol. Our bodies feel sluggish and out of kilter. I admire both your absolute honesty and your "no regrets - no apologies" philosophy. In some ways - you are my opposite - and you know what "they" say about opposites. You have to trust yourself a great deal to maintain that approach. I would fear that "point of no return." Good luck to ya! I look forward to your recovery. Go get 'em!
30 Jul 09 by member: poet-in-motion
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