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OH my gosh it has been way too long since I've been here and posted a journal entry. I am so sorry ME :-( but I'm here now and I will turn this around. I've been ok with my OA meetings and abstinence BUT I've been sliding a bit here and there. I've been letting STUFF get to me and my weight has been one of them. I was at a standstill for awhile around 156.5 and now that I'm here I see my last weigh in was 154. Oh goodness and now I'm creeping up. BUT I'll turn this around. I went bicycle riding yesterday with a friend and bought her old bike so NOW I want to ride at least a couple block everyday. I have yet to get out there today but I WILL! Also I dug out my old Richard Simmons exercise DVDs I did put it in the player but didn't press play yet. That will happen today also. BUT getting here and writing in my journal is the thing that will turn me around and my sponser knew it, she gently reminded me that my attitude does change after I've been on this site. I won't vent right now about STUFF that has gotten me down right now. BUT I already feel better. So I am thankful that I came here today. She also suggested I write a gratitude list and that would help me feel better. Well, DUH, of course I'm grateful for so much. Just getting up and breathing is enough to put a smile on my face. But also I am thankful for my mom, even though it is ALOT of stress to take care of her (89 Alzhemer's she will be 90 in August), it is nice that she is still here and physically good. She is in her own little world but seems happy and receptive to everything. It is like having a 2 year old but ok somedays. I just have to remember that I also have my good days and not so good days and so does she. I miss my dad, he passed away 4/13/13 (85 Parkinsens) but I don't miss him being in pain and frustrated about his illness. Sometimes I would wonder if being mentally ok but physically challenged was worse or better than my mom with her mental off but physiclally good. It just bothers me that good people have to go through this type of pain and I could not take it away. Oh well, such is life. Right now I am ok, today I am ok.
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157.0 lb
Lost so far: 21.0 lb.
Still to go: 19.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 0.6 lb a week
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