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Failed. After 2 weeks something couldn't keep up with regular workout routine. Im working out but not every day for 1 hour like Insanity requests. I just don't find out that time and I don't have the support necessary to keep up with it. Lame excuses from my side. Maybe I should try again, or take it back from where I left it and go on.
I'm upset on others for my own failure. There's a list of pending things I have to do, some on regular basis, and many times I fail.
I fail to clean up room, laundry(few days) and dishes on daily basis.
I fail working out on daily basis for 1 hour.
I fail waking up very early every morning.
I fail to enjoy life every day.
I fail to love the ones around me.
Failed finishing out the design work.
Didn't go to the exam I was supposed to.
I was supposed to get a job until now but it didn't happen yet. I was offered 2 jobs until now but denied both because they were underpaid and very low compared to my studies. Was offered 1 job of office assistant and another one as a gardener. I'm a master grad. For both payment is bad. I have a tiny kid at home. I told to myself and my husband said to me same that it's not worth it going to work, and wasting 8-10 hrs/day and being underpaid and neglecting the kid.
So Im a bit at a low feeling like a failure because of all those things I did not manage to do until now. I just wish I could be better than this.
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