sara698's Journal, 10 December 2014

Hang in there! :) 

love do. but cant help it;( 

oh by the way..you have adorable kid.lucky u.. 

when you feel depressed, log into your FS account and vent. The people on this web-site are caring and understanding, and will listen when you need it most.  

Thanks Sara...she is a cutie. 

Sara698, please try to not be too hard on yourself. I do understand that depression is difficult, my wife struggles with depression and being bi-polar and I have gone through a some times in life where it was a struggle. When you're feeling depressed your mind paints a bad picture of everything and thinks negative thoughts, but most of that kind of thinking is a lie and not the truth. Try to focus if you can on something positive, think of things in your life that are good and that you're thankful for. If you can, start off each day with a list of 3 things in your life that you're thankful for. I can see from your picture you are a beautiful woman, and I'm sure you are beautiful in spirit also. Of course life is about so much more than weight loss, but you have done well in losing what you have and weight loss is seldom just a straight line down, there are bumps along the way. This a bump in time and it will get better. I hope you can see yourself and your life for the positive things that I am sure are there. 

thank u all for ur supports..i really appreciate it.u know ur not like people that i know.im iranian and im sure that all of u heard about my country..im not scared to talk about my problems.in my culture talking about yourself is fault..but im not like them.I`ve been studing english since i was a little girl..and one of my dreams was leaving this cage which we call it country..believe me..sometimes knowing too much will hurt u..im a good painter but my mom never let me follow my dream..art was in my blood..but nobody could see it.till i decided to get marry,(the only reason was to get rid of my parents pressure ,because i was the youngest member and nobody cared about me..never....my mom wished that i would be a doctor or something,but i couldnt...and she never realized.)anyway i got married when i was 19..my husband and his family did terrible things to me..oh god i cant even write it..it makes me cry..when i came back to my family for support..they never accepted me..im studying english literature..but i started to get licence in hair styling,,makeup nail plant,haircut and....im really great in my job but my parent never supported me because i tried to follow my dream to become a professional stylist..they think im the shame of my family....... 

jmb speaks wisely! lots of people here who support you. years ago when my son was in a very negative place mentally, we started a "game" where we would email each other every night with 3 positive things that happened during the day, and 3 negative things. he wasn't always able to come up with 3 positive things, but it forced him to review his day and try! sometimes all he came up with was that he had a good lunch, but it was a start! hang in there!! 

Dont let it beat you Sara, you are the one in charge here 

thank u all for ur comments..ur all i have..my hands are trembling..and there is nothing i can say to reveal my happiness..this is one good thing which i can recall..all of u made my day..thanks again..please dont forget me..i need ur supports to follow my dreams..to be myself not people want me to be...