JDbowler's Journal, 29 October 2014

Happy Hump Day FS friends. It's Wednesday and I find myself just tired. Tired from working two jobs, tired from drama in my life, and just tired of looking at the scale. I started a challenge on FS that has me looking at the scale every day, and it is, at least with me, mentally frustrating. I have been weighing myself every day for two weeks and I didn't even realize the 2 pound drop that I had. So, I am going to have to revert back to my once or twice a week weigh ins.

I got a call from my daughter last night, telling me that she doesn't want to go through with her final year of Catechism, and get her Confirmation. It's fine, I know it's her mom talking. Her mom doesn't go to church, and doesn't want our daughter going to church, and she finally convinced her to not go. I'm tired of fighting with them. That is all I seem to do. I fight with them on everything, but it has started to come to an end. When I just told her it's her choice, she seemed really disappointed that I didn't fight her and force her to go. I may be a little hurt, but the two of them have made me feel numb to hurting. I guess this stress doesn't help with the weight loss but I'm trying to get it out of my life. I have 5 more years that I have to deal with her mom, so I make it a point to remind myself of that fact every time that they want to fight. It helps.

Well, that's enough about me, just needed to get that out of my system. Thanks for listening (reading really) and I hope you all have a wonderful hump day.
274.0 lb Lost so far: 66.0 lb.    Still to go: 24.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 29 October 2014:
1543 kcal Fat: 38.75g | Prot: 72.83g | Carb: 239.77g.   Breakfast: Silk Almond Milk Protein + Fiber, Cheerios Cheerios Protein Oats & Honey. Lunch: Grapes (Red or Green, European Type Varieties Such As Thompson Seedless), Cucumber (with Peel), Healthy Life 100% Whole Wheat Whole Grain Bread, Bland Farms Vidalia Sweet Onion, Jason's Deli Tomato Slice, Baby Spinach, Hillshire Farm Deli Select Pastrami, Hillshire Farm Deli Select Rotisserie Seasoned Chicken Breast, Raspberries, Sargento Ultra Thin Swiss Cheese. Dinner: Broccoli, Turkey Gravy (Dry), Bisquick Biscuit, Turkey Breast Meat, Mashed Potatoes (Whole Milk and Butter Added). Snacks/Other: Keebler Mini Rainbow Chips Deluxe Cookies. more...
4311 kcal Activities & Exercise: Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 20 minutes, Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 20 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 40 minutes, Resting - 6 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
steady weight

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Sometimes praying for our children is all we can do. Coming to that realization can feel like surrender, but in reality it is calling in the BIG GUNS! I'm glad you have an outlet here on FS for those frustrating things in life. They really do have an effect on our whole lifestyle...And I think you know what is best for you with weighing in. I notice that day-to-day weigh-ins hide the losses too. I weigh my self every morning, but only do an official record of my weight on Friday and Monday mornings. Friday to see my progress for the week and to encourage me to not lose all my progress over the weekend, and Monday to hold me accountable for the weekend. So far that system is working well for me, but if in time it stops motivating me I will tweak my weigh-in system to best benefit my motivation. Whatever your weigh-in plans turn out to be, make them work for you. Take pleasure in the fact you can control that one area of your life ~ and smile! 
29 Oct 14 by member: Hipaagrammy
Yes I've learned over the years some things are not worth the battle. My daughter now grown wouldn't go to church when little today, would fight us all the way..we too said its your choice, as as adult it is very much a part of her life. Stay healthy it will be worth it. 
29 Oct 14 by member: Lindar51
Thank you both for the wonderful comments. I really appreciate it. 
29 Oct 14 by member: JDbowler
Don't think that your relationship with your daughter's mother ends when she turns 18 - there are graduations, weddings, grandchildren ....it will be important to your daughter that BOTH of her parents can share in her joy at her wedding, and the birth of their grandchildren 
29 Oct 14 by member: Babcikaren
There are people in this world who I believe are not really happy with and about themselves; so, they have to make others feel the same. That's the only way to make themselves happy. Trust in the Lord, and give this whole situation up to Him. He wants us to ALWAYS turn to Him, for He is the only One who can do something about it. I have learned to do this many years ago, as this in itself is STRESS. Stress is what caused my breast cancer, and I refuse to go back there. That's why God is in my life, and I am so much at PEACE now--and HEALTHY! God is good.  
29 Oct 14 by member: encouraged
I know I will have to be around her for a wedding, grandchildren and a graduation. But, I don't have to deal with her every day. I have a stess in my life, that is my ex, and it doesn't go away. The little light of hope I have is 5 years away. When it gets here, I don't have to talk to her, don't have to listen to the constant reasons why I have made her life a living nightmare, and don't have to listen to how she thinks I should live my life. Whenever we talk about my daughter, we are civil, but when she starts telling me how I have ruined her plans, how I have stopped her from having fun, how it is always my fault, that is what I am looking forward to not hearing anymore. I will be happy to plan a wedding, or a graduation, or see our grandchildren together. For, then the fighting will truly be over, and I don't have to be a part of her telling me anything negative. I have raised my daughter for 12 years, and just recently her mom wants her, and she wants to be with her mom. That's fine. I know I have a wonderful relationship with my daughter. That is all that matters. Thank you all again for the great comments. Hope you have a fantastic day. 
29 Oct 14 by member: JDbowler
They say time heals all wounds. Stay the course, have patience and try to be the better person with her mom. Listen and be as supportive as you can to your daughter. Hopefully, things will work out for all of you over time. I have family that went through the same thing. Kids will figure it out after awhile on their own. After years of bickering, fighting and getting the kids in the middle of it, they are now friendly to each other, and the kids interact with both of them. Hope everything works out for you. 
29 Oct 14 by member: Chillie Willie
Praying for you and your family. 
29 Oct 14 by member: 50Gone

     
 

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