Kris AZ's Journal, 15 July 2014

I think your brother has given up on himself and doesn't care if he will have another heart attack which is very likely because his heart is already weakened and he is not taking care of himself. He is not an emotional hoarder since that means he couldn't trow stuff away, he is just lazy to clean his place up. He is probably depressed and only a psychiatrist could help him. Depression is a serious illness, ordinary people like me and you can't fully understand that kind of behaviour. Many of us have some issues with our parents and have to deal with them but try to not get too upset about him. He is not worth it. You have your life, enjoy it with the people who want to be with you. 

I know. Its hard watching someone basically committing suicide and not admitting it. 

A lot of us have really bad habits. For me it was not exercising, eating too much candy, ignoring my high blood pressure and the result is what I have now. Thankfully my blood sugar levels was always good, at least I could correct my wrongs since my blood pressure is normal now. Some people like your brother live very dangerously. Especially men over 40 should watch out, being obese, smoking and not exercising can kill them. Thankfully estrogen protects us until menopause. Until your brother wants to help himself there is nothing you can do. 

I'm so sorry Kris, it does sound as if he is in a depression.  

It's so sad, but you can't do anything for your brother, or about the hurts from your past. All you can do is try to leave all of that behind you & focus on living better for yourself. You're doing great with your weight loss, & I know you will be successful going the rest of the way. Keep looking forward to a better, healthier you! Hugs, Glammer