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Today is the 23, 2nd day of binging. But I only logged slightly over 1900 again, and I am okay with it. Today, I am fine. I know it is over, no effort at all. My last month binge was about 2300 for 2 days. I have slid down, that is good. And today, I feel fine. I like so many of you are in a depression- not super bad- just so unmotivated. Hope I hope working on my Monday BBQ will bring up my spirits. I hate the cloudy thug I am in. Wish I could just sleep through it and wake up and it is over, but no, not going to happen. When you are depressed, sleep is your only release.
The one thing different about yesterdays binge was I ate things I normally would not touch. 4 miniature candy bars, a few chips and a bit of onion dip. That stuff is always here. My husband eats it and he has no weight issues…darn him! But since I started logging and tracking, no breaches of this type of food- so, ok!
This was also the first time in 7 weeks the binge was emotional eating. The last two weeks were hell with broken things, all adding up. Garbage disposal, gone. Dishwasher, gone. Two pretty big car repairs. Water heater, gone. All of this had to be replaced. The dishwasher is repairable but still waiting on parts- have been hand washing already 3 weeks……no parts not in sight! We have all had this jinx on us. But it wears you out. And I will not even explain the hours on customer service with the dishwasher manufacturer over this problem and all the mistakes made by so many people that cost me money, took my time and had be doing the same calls to undo what I did do as I figured out what was actual and what was wrong. Why can't people learn their jobs and no be such screw ups?
they firs title me it was under warranty, then told me is was not and to call Electrolux and buy one. Before all that, the first screw ups told me is was not under warranty and needed a motor a board and hoses…..ridiculous for 1 year 3 months old. That is what caused me to call for a second opinion (200.00!) as I was facing a giant repair bill on all this…. I buy the warranty- three calls into customer service. Called Electrolux to complain the dishwasher was shot and it was a year and a few months old and got a "concession" from them to pay for all of the part- but not the labor. The extended warranty was 315.00!
Call back the first idiots and now they realize I had bought an extended warranty to it will be covered…when I got upset, this guy yells at me as to how it is not their fault. I would not have known all this, except I called them to give them the concession # to bill the parts- then they found the warranty. And yes, I had my receipt but it was a carbon copy and I could barely read it. NO warranty in my file. I had them fax it to me and now I have it. I then had to call back Electrolux to get my money back as I had a warranty. The first idiot at the appliance store insisted by the records I did not. The second idiot corrected it but yelled at me as "it was not HIS fault and the warranty person had NO way of knowing!" then how did he know? And he yelled at me that " he was just trying to help me" so the ass wants to be thanked for yelling at me after all this I went through. The store is privately owned and I am going to write the owner a letter and ask him to reimburse me or I will never buy there again. They cost me tons of anxiety, many holds on customer service, buying things I did not need……all because they are idiots- they yelled at me to blame me for their own incompetence. I would NVER buy another Electrolux dishwasher- but the other appliances I bought of theirs have been fine.
This is the second one I have had, the first one died pre-maturely too and I got a concession from Electrolux to help pay for it. First one- 4 years. I got a 750 credit on another one. This one- 1.3 years. I am done. The repair guys say Bosch is bullet proof. I will buy one of those when this is done- should not take too long! does a beautiful job on the dishes, but too many head aches. And mine were both very expensive!
I know all this means nothing- who has not been through this stuff. But it was ALOT of just bull to work through for two weeks and of course guiding out the money and installs on everything. AGHHHH!
Anyways, Friday, I just could not take it! I locked myself in an upstairs bedroom and turned on the TV…..and I found my husbands candy bar stash. So, that was the beginning of the binge- and I had NO bad feelings about it! I needed anything to feel better and I don't drink.
One December day in 2013, I had 5 vacuum cleaners break. My upstairs one- toasted. My downstairs one…toasted. My quick light sweeper broken. I went into the closet and pulled out a hand vac for the steps…broken. I then went to the garage and got a shop vac which had only been used 3 times- broken.
Ok- this is not War and Peace, life and death…..but man….when it rains it pours.
I believe the binge is over. Typical me, it was two days. Seems like high eating one day for me always goes to one more. Hopefully, I can go right back on instead of easing back on. But that is okay too.
UPDATE: Spoke too soon on the binge- day two was 2390 as I ate 3, yeah count 'em 3 Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwiches.. in my crazy binge, I did not record. They only reason I remembered was I saw the empty box in my garbage….then I remembered! It does not good to lie to myself, so I went back and entered it. I can't change things I do not admit happened. No recriminations….just plan to let this pass. I know that over a 30 day period, most binges become insignificant. I can't even be sure I forgot anything else. That is how it is when I am on a tear…I am just no thinking! Used to be a typical response for me to problems- eat to feel better.
First time in about 7 weeks I ate emotionally. I can live with that.
UPDATE: Remembered more I ate. About at 2,800. WOW! That is my highest day since I started. One thing I think I have learned, I will eat the MOST if I do it as an emotional response….it has no OFF switch for me! I am going to a figure out some constructive different responses. One time of emotional in 7 weeks I know is not much. But it was ALOT. Now I feel kind of crumby about it…..was taking it in stride before I recalled the last entry. Win or Learn. Now I need to learn from it……Experience is such a harsh teacher!
Diet Calendar Entry for 24 May 2014:
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2135 kcal
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Fat: 106.95g | Prot: 94.13g | Carb: 196.32g.
Breakfast: Marzetti Veggie Ranch Light Marzetti Simply Dressing, Taylor Farms Celery Sticks, Potato Salad. Lunch: Boiled Egg, Shrimp Cocktail (Shrimp with Cocktail Sauce). Dinner: Young Green Onions, Teriyaki Sauce KristyQ, Pagoda Express Chicken Potstickers. Snacks/Other: Keebler Toast & Peanut Butter Sandwich Crackers (39g), Gala Apples, Snickers Peanut Butter Squares (Fun Size), Butter (Salted), Beefsteak Bread Soft Rye Bread, Parmesan Cheese (Shredded). more...
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