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What is with me today! I don't usually give in to stress and negativity easily but somehow, I feel sad today. I just came back from a 3 day trip with my mom, aunt and grandma. It was a mother's day treat for them actually. We had fun but I felt bad about the missed workouts, which, in turn, is making me dread weigh in day again! Plus my peanut cravings are through the roof! Like I don't want to stop eating them once I start! And they are very high cal!
More than that though, I guess I am passing through a phase in my life where I am praying for His will in my life but at the same time struggling with letting go of what I want and accepting what He has planned for me. I'm sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable or something with this kind of talk. I just want to let it out somewhere. It is difficult to find a venue to talk about these stuff when in your line of work, you do it for others.
Diet Calendar Entries for 12 May 2014:
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360 kcal
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Fat: 15.91g | Prot: 14.77g | Carb: 50.30g.
Breakfast: Cucumber (with Peel). Lunch: Peanuts, Jicama. Dinner: Cucumber (with Peel). Snacks/Other: Cucumber (with Peel). more...
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2246 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 1 hour, Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 15 minutes, Bicycling (moderate) - 13/mph - 1 hour, Shopping - 2 hours, Resting - 11 hours and 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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First of all this is YOUR journal, and if you cannot vent here, where else should you vent? Second you read my journal, nobody is perfect, and there is no such thing as a perfect day. You cannot be happy and on a high all the time. Take this time to reflect and don't raise the bar too high until you are ready to face up to the world again. Third and last, peanuts? what is in peanuts that you are not getting from other foods? Hmmm, could it be an IRON deficiency? Try to take iron supplements, or else eat alternative foods high in iron, just google: "foods high in iron".
12 May 14 by member: puhpine
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been thinking about what you wrote Z. I understand your slight trepidation at voicing your faith. I wholeheartedly agree with Puhpine here and I encourage you to talk about absolutely anything you want to in your journal. It's a powerful tool. And after all, praying never hurt anyone.
I think there are some red flags in what you wrote. Perhaps you should explore why you feel sad? If you ask yourself 'why', the answer will come to you. Perhaps you could ditch the peanuts and google emotional eating? just a thought. For me it's alcohol and chocolate. If I don't have them, I don't miss them. But if I have them, I want them the next day too. I am an 'emotional eater'. Recognising what feelings are going on is what is helping me. Respectfully.
12 May 14 by member: Buffy101
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I absolutely agree that this is your journal to post any and every thing you are feeling, venting, crying, rejoicing. We are here for you as is your God who understands too as you struggle. Thinking of you! Xoxox
12 May 14 by member: Ruhu
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12 May 14 by member: Buffy101
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Hi everyone! Thanks for taking the time to read my journal entry and for the support! FS is a really good venue to vent whatever you are feeling. I felt so much better the moment I submitted my journal entry. I think I was more scared than sad actually. I am a very independent person. I am not used to depending on anyone to get things done or done correctly. Which makes praying for His will in my life such a struggle for me. Letting go of control and not knowing what is coming my way is hard. But then, I have to if I am serious about seeking His will for my life. Right now, whenever I am scared, i just pray for his love and wisdom. =)
14 May 14 by member: ZivaDavid11
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