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Totally off Atkins tonight. Snacks,h'oerdeuvres, cookies. (And I'm not one for sugar but the home-made chocalate chips were calling). My weight scale said I gained five plus pounds. Hee Hee. Thank God holidays aren't very frequent; I didn't eat as much as others, unfortunately just the real heavy stuff like cheesecake and doughy junk, I only had a small plate of the main meal. Next time I'll do it the other way around. Hopefully with a leftover plate and a fast on Thursday I can get by without a horrendous gain for the week. I'm ready for induction - which I started earlier this week, and need to go back on for good. Once a year is OK. But I overdid it. I'm thin so I can get away with one night a year of this nonsense, but I overdid it. I had a migraine on top of it and with the kids there - there were over twenty people in my sister's house so that makes me extremely nervous,and that almost always makes me eat a lot. Missing a friend from my past I've contacted twice. I will not contact this friend again, they have no interest in bothering with me. My future is not near this person obviously, unfortunately. But to Europe, Hawaii or Asia if I become a successful published author. Merry Christmas to everyone on Fat Secret! You're all a blessing! glenn P.S. 2009 resolutions coming into fruition already. Not just to do a reasonable stay on Atkins but to rid myself of friends who used to go places with me and now just talk to speak of toxic stuff about others, friends who go places a lot and frequently leave me behind, friends who scream at me for no reason - (she's gone) - relatives may be gone soon too. I called my dad he gave me a ton of it tonight. Too long to go into. Like because I'm bipolar and not earning $100,000 a year like everyone else in the family as I'm messed up. My mom is always yelling at me too. My twin sister has three children, four grandchildren, a husband, dozens of friends, money, security... I literally have no extra money, no girlfriend, a few toxic friends who are definitely going as my sister said to me when I described them to her that they're not true friends. I have no family. So I have to start to get out there my sister said and she said I'm too alone with my writing and with my toxic friends and have been this way too long not realizing that there is a better life for me out there if I just get out there and go looking for it and seek it. I have the willpower to change my life - I lost a tremendous amount of weight. There's no reason to be alone and wait for people to call me who are toxic, miserable and down on life when I can find good people like the ones whom I met at the yoga class and will be able to meet at a gym, writing group, hiking group and church and any other social group that I can find to join!!!! :)
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