SaintViper's Journal, 08 November 2010

ok, went to the dark side and tried that Chobani stuff. Tasted fine but we'll see if it agrees with me. 

Hey way to go! I wish that would work for me.  

Yup, should loose that last 33lbs sometime in the next week and a half. 

if only, right? 

No kidding. By tomorrow I'll only be loosing 9 lbs a week.  

No issues with the Chobani. Had a craving for tuna though. Got some sushi for supper instead. (Well, California Rolls. Close enough for my craving.) 

Ooh next time you go for california rolls if you go to a sushi restaurant if you get it with no mayo usually they will give you realy crab in its place. I have IBS and so far chobani has not upset my stomach but I have only had the plain fat free one. Kefir is like drinkable yogurt and has a decent protein percentage and it doesn't seem to bother my stomach either. Cottage cheese also, mmmm with grapes!  

I got the California rolls from the grocery store. There's a Japanese couple there during the day that make it right in the store. Kind of a store within the store deal. They're gone by the time I get there though. There's mayo in California rolls? I didn't think the Chobani by itself would be a problem, but I had a lot of fiber with it and it has sugary fruit in it. Sometimes the combination of dairy, sugar, and fiber does bad things to me, but no issues at all yesterday. 

Yeah isn't it like a krab salad with avocado, cucumber and some sweet carrot some times. Everytime I have had california rolls it's imitation crab shredded with mayo added. However I always ask for no mayo now. It cuts the calories in like half. 

Hmmmm, the california rolls I get don't have mayo, but they're the ones like SV gets where there are some folks who come in to the store and make the sushi onsite in the store. Just rice, nori, crab, avocado, and cucumber or carrot (can't remember which) or there's the veggies ones with just the three veggies and no crab. I bet plain ff chobani with tuna and some spices in a wrap would be delicious.....hmmmmm...maybe next lunch.... 

Yeah a gal at work say sometimes the store ones they just put a chunk of imitation crab in and skip the mayo. I'm thinking I might have to give some store bought ones a try, J hates sushi and my only sushi eating buddy, well I'm not exactly wanting to be buddies anymore.  

I don't have anyone to eat sushi with anymore either. But it's just as well. I'm sure I don't want to try and figure out the portions of those things. I'll stick with my stuff I bring from home. Better for me anyway.  

It's interesting, they say being overweight is contagious. If you have more than four obese friends, you are much more likely to be obese. Do you find yourself wanting to jettison your bigger friends now that you are on a different path? If so, is it to get away from their bad habits that drag you down with them? I haven't gotten rid of any friends, but I do have a bit of an attitude now. I can't help feeling a little superior when we go out to eat and I have a salad or fish and vegetables and certain people go with a huge burger and fries. I keep it to myself of course but I imagine it shows a little bit. 

Most of my friends are smaller...or, well, WERE smaller than me. Now we're of roughly the same size? So I guess I'm grateful they didn't be snobby to me. I try to keep that in mind. I also have been told on a couple of occasions by my DH that I get "self-righteous" about the food/diet thing so I try really hard to not be that way. If people ASK for help/advice (ie I just had an "aunt in law" ask me for advice a minute ago) then I am happy to share. But I just give them the framework, and then let them ask for more details if they really are interested....cuz usually, they wilt when they find out it's not a magic pill in a bottle or a specific "diet". I try to just gain strength FOR me FROM me and let other people make their own choices. If they want to celebrate a choice they made, so be it. I also try REALLY hard not to judge strangers that I see. Because I have NO IDEA what their story is. Maybe that fat guy over there just rode his bike 60 miles and is really hungry and deserves that big plate of food. Or maybe that lady who looks heavy but is out walking used to be twice as big and has come a long way and I just don't know that she's "half the woman" that she was 8 months ago. I guess that's the most important thing that we can get from this life "lesson". We can ONLY control ourselves and our own choices. But if we make ourselves available and APPROACHABLE to others, then eventually someone will likely look up to us and want to come and ask for advice. Meanwhile serenity comes from the feeling of being satisfied from a good meal with friends without feeling BLOATED and miserable.  

Was that referring to me? I do have quite a few people in my life (not neccesarily friends) who are overweight. I don't think that being overweight is contagious, I do think that when someone in the group starts to make changes it tends to challenge them to make changes too. Creates this sort of silent tension, it bothers me AT TIMES because I don't judge them for being overweight and not doing anything about it, but they also shouldn't judge me for wanting to do something about it. The friend I do not really wish to be friends with is actully rather petite and a coworker. Not only has she stabbed me in the back several times betraying my trust, but she just spreads nastiness and negativity. I used to enjoy hanging out with her, but now just the thought of it makes me cringe. I would surely not be myself around her anymore, so what's the point. We don't have anything in common other than our place of employment, and although that seems to be a trend with most women, because I am not like most women, I would rather be alone than be around people who do nothing but drag me down. I like to be outside, I camp, kayaki, ski, bike, play tennis. I like to dance and not at a club, and my idea of a good time is not happy hour. I tried to fit in, but quite honestly I would rather have mud in my toes than get a pedicure. I'm weird and I have accepted that. Trying to be 'normal' I feel is one of the many reasons I am overweight and basically ate myself into oblivion. This is where the fat was truly my armor, like an invincibility cloak. No one really notices you when you are overweight and it's easy to blend into the background. A low self-esteem means I dealt with a lot more of people's crap than I should have and I was very angry A LOT because of it. I think now I am a much more laid back person, but definitely not high enough self-esteem to think myself superior while eating out. Although I am SURE that a lot of people think that's what I am thinking. When really I don't care. 

I also don't give unsolicited advice and try to keep my weight loss talks to a minimum, so J here's it all instead. I think a lot of the time that I am actually a bad example because I have no consistency, but then again I tend to undermine my attempts and triumphs. That's a self esteem thing though.  

Easy there CD...I don't think SV was taking aim at anyone. I think he was just noting something about himself and thought he'd share that observation and ask the same questions of us. We're all friends here. I think we are the least judgemental group that we could find. 

Haha..I guess what I thought he said and what he actually said are two different things. I see now that it was not a direct response, but more of a forum topc. Sorry about that, maybe i'm feeling a bit vulnerable today.  

It's ok. Silly girl. :) We're all here for ya. Did you see my total "mis-read" on FB on Friday? Cracked me up. A friend posted quote of the day "I need to be more visible from behind." I read it as "I USED to be more visible from behind." Which I thought was perfect for me...but then I saw that I had mis-read it. So then I REALLY got the giggles then. LOL!!! 

Oops, probably a bad segway on my part. They were talking about your overweight friends making you overweight on the radio yesterday and your post made me think of it.