Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 24 July 2013

Day 3 and feeling less fluffy! I think I'm going to start copying some of the blogs from spark to fatsecret and vice versa.. love the tools there but I love the people here. I'm sure they have lovely people there but I don't know any of them! I did start stalking a woman from Syracuse who does marathons. I figure I can read all about her doing 5Ks and other running thingys. Maybe it will inspire me to do something too seeing what there is to do locally. Then again... she looks like superwoman compared to the woman that was looking back at me this morning. Note to self.. when you lose then gain.. hide the mirror in the bathroom! Stupid gain.

Anyways.. onto the copy and paste!
I'm not sure if I've actually lost any weight or if I've shed some of the water retained from the crap that I was eating just a few days ago. Either way I feel better. Last night I almost had enough energy to exercise after getting my little man to bed. Almost. I remember thinking I will lay here another 2 minutes then get up to exercise. Never happened. I woke up at midnight wondering what happened. I really need to look into some parenting books or sleep training books to get little man to fall asleep and stay asleep in his own bed now that he's older. Usually he will fall asleep in our bed and I will move him to his bed but he wakes up at 4 or 5 am so then he's back in our bed. It was ok when he was little and he was nursing but now I'd like to sleep without a little 20 lb cuddler pushing me off my own bed. Or put him in bed then workout without falling asleep waiting for him to fall asleep. I'm a pushover. I know it. I'm just to exhausted to fix the situation most nights.

I am eating better. I actually managed to eat half a dark chocolate candy bar yesterday. In the past I would have consumed the whole thing then looked for another. I blame it on being raised in a family where there were the quick and there were the hungry. No joke my parents used this phrase nightly at the dinner table. The candy is there. It will be there... I need to learn that I don't have to eat everything all at once. If someone else eats it.. oh well! The world will not run out of dark chocolate. Now if I can get myself to eat only 1 square a day instead of 3 then that will show some real strength and growth.