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I wanted to record a journal entry aside from what I normally record on a daily basis.
I wanted to record something that wasn't a reflection of my joy or dissappointment regarding my weight on the scale.
I am doing that in order to disconnect my true feelings that may be attached to that number on the scale.
You see, for the last 18 months, I have begun a transformation. I used to really obsess about the scale, and sometimes, even as recently as in the last few days, I have lost sight of the main thing that propelled me towards this goal: to be healthy.
My aim through this whole diet and exercise routine is to become healthy and to gear myself for the real things in life that pop up like a birthday, or Christmas, or Thanksgiving and be able to say, "No, or yes, I will have a SMALL slice of that."
If there is one thing that I have realized about my journey with my weight loss, it is to focus on the things that really matter like my children and my family's well-being. I have lost sight of this recently because my partner and I have been losing weight together and I took what was once fun and destroyed it. It became an "unfriendly" comeptition.
He would tell me how much he lost, and instead of being supportive for him, I would grumble and complain about how little I lost, or worse, how much I would gain! I now see the error of my ways and have begun my weight loss journey once again by tracking my caloric intake rather than my carb count. I have decided that there are just some things that I can't compromise on like a nice slice of rye bread or even a protein shake with milk. I need these things to keep me going on this journey.
I also need to realize that muscle weighs more than fat in theory. I measured my waist on Monday and it was 36" and then I re-measured today (because I FELTsmaller, and I had lost an amazing inch off my waist!!!
So, I think I am going to re-focus my attention in this journal to what I have accomplished rather than what I haven't. After all, isn't that what makes us want to always achieve our personal best?
By the way, thanks Mike for the support and encouragement you have given me so far. I wouldn't be doing this without you!
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