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Today I am working on emotional reasoning. Every time I want to do something that is off my plan I am to ask myself questions as to why I want to do it. I struggle the most with eating after everyone has gone to bed and I am left alone. I guess I am lonely and I want to comfort myself so I eat. I am to ask myself questions like,
Just because I want to eat does that mean I have to eat?
Could I want a piece of fruit instead?
What can I do about my loneliness?
What healthy hobby can I do tonight?
No of course I do not have to eat I choose to eat. Wrong choice. This choice will only make me feel guilty and angry which will not help me in the least.
Yes of course I could have a piece of fruit, but in my mind that isn't as comforting but in the long run it will be as I will be proud of myself.
I like to wallow in my loneliness sometimes. The martyr syndrome. I have felt lonely so often it is my natural way of feeling. So why would I pick up the phone and call someone? A friend, my daughter, actually have a conversation with my husband. This would break the loneliness.
I have had so many hobbies, and like everything I quit half way through. Well this time I will finish what I start and be proud of the result of creating something and finishing a project. I have a needle point I would like to do. I am going to do it starting tonight. Actually, doing this plan has become a hobby to a point. I sit down here after everyone is gone and do my food plan for the next day. By the time I have finished I am pooped and want to go to bed and I haven't eaten a thing.
Diet Calendar Entries for 20 February 2013:
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1586 kcal
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Fat: 74.07g | Prot: 86.73g | Carb: 153.38g.
Breakfast: coffee, miracle whip, Rye Bread, eggs. Lunch: Grilled Salmon with Mud & Herbs. Dinner: butter, frozen green bean, potatoe, Slow-Cooker Braised Pork with Salsa. Snacks/Other: Pace Salsa, avacado, laughing cow, Wasa, milk. more...
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3687 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 2 hours, Desk Work - 8 hours, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 20 minutes, Resting - 5 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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