Densible's Journal, 19 June 2008

So today I went to the gym for first time in a week or so....so happy I went. Was measured and lost another inch from my upper arms and my waist. Hips still the same-not surprising as that is where my spare tire is resting. I feel relieved that I did not slip backwards during my lapse....

Like so many here lately, I feel stuck and somewhat hopeless.. I am not giving up though. This will pass. I have to keep my eyes on the prize-is it trite to compare our struggle to that of civil rights? Rhetorical question!

I weigh less now than at any time since I started this journey and have noticed lately that I see myself as fatter and less attractive (is that even possible!). When I look in the mirror I see the fat very clearly and it bothers me. Up to this point I have enjoyed seeing the subtle changes in my body. I think it's like redecorating. Once you paint the walls, the carpet or floors look dirty and old, so they get a redo and then the furniture looks shabby and so on....I just wish I could hire someone, go on vacation and come back to find a new and improved house/body. Unfortunately this is a DIY project and I will just have to roll up my sleeves and tackle it one step at a time.

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1255 kcal

Fat: 57.15g | Prot: 47.55g | Carb: 125.23g.   Breakfast: benefiber, mayo, light cheese, light flat out, turkey deli. Lunch: French Fries (Small), 100% Whole Grain Wheat Hamburger Buns, tomato, lettuce, mayo, swiss cheese, olive oil, mushrooms, The Original Veggie Burgers. Dinner: sesame oil, soy sauce, broccoli. Snacks/Other: popcorn, peanut butter, fudgesicle, wine. more...

2685 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 7 hours, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 1 hour and 20 minutes, Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 1 hour, Resting - 6 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...