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Tried to post my bio, but it wouldn't take it. I feel as though being public about my frustration and my fear is a big part of making sure I get the weight off and keep it off, so I'm posting what would be my bio here:
I know this is supposed to be a bio, but I am going to purge, so this could get messy. You've been warned.
I'm an active 46 year old father of an 8 lb. wannabe Pit Bull (really, he's a silky terrier). I have built and sold two consulting companies and now provide Executive Coaching services for clients across the country. Work success has never been a problem for me, but over the years, spending a lot of time in hotel rooms and airports left me with bad eating habits and waning commitments to regular exercise.
I work out with a trainer twice a week, but have lately been hit and miss in showing up. I play softball and volleyball, but also love hanging out with my friends at restaurants, which leads to a lot of eating and drinking, and as a result, I'm here losing weight...again. No one wants to be the fat boy running the bases during the regular season.
I'm pretty confident I can lose the weight. BUT, I want a long term solution to keeping it off and making better choices, so I don't annually or semi-annually have to shed massive amounts of weight.
I'm 6'3" and I know how to dress my body when it gets fat, so I also suffer from everyone telling me I don't look overweight, or I don't look like I gained 50 pounds. Part of my problem is that I believe them, until I find myself wheezing at the top of the steps.
My father has had a heart attack, which resulted in the addition of a stint, and then 10 years later had quadruple bypass open heart surgery. I have a brother who weighs over 450 lbs, and I have lost 3 aunts/uncles to heart attacks at the ages of 50, 55 and 56.
I'm pretty sure my blood pressure is high, but I don't know for sure, because I don't want to go to my doctor, because I have gained 50 pounds since I saw him last. Vanity. That's an issue. It seems I'd rather risk my health than let my doctor know I'm fat. Even as I type that, I'm laughing at myself. It's absurd.
Absurd! That's how I feel as I start this process...again. And hopeful...hopeful that this time I will figure out how to keep the weight off.
Wow. Reading back over this profile, it's depressing, which is strange to me, because I am a very positive person who can see the good in almost ANY situation. I guess sometimes purging in words is good for the soul. So, there's my soul-puke.
And now...forward.
Diet Calendar Entries for 03 January 2013:
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1389 kcal
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Fat: 49.54g | Prot: 94.38g | Carb: 120.82g.
Breakfast: Weight control oatmeal, water. Lunch: water, cheese, croutons, spinach side salad, steak chili. Dinner: red wine, skinless grilled chicken, spinach salad, steamed green beans. Snacks/Other: bottled water, pear. more...
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2755 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 18 hours, Sleeping - 6 hours. more...
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