Bodaciousblueeyes's Journal, 15 January 2019

oh my. I am so sorry for you. I cannot imagine what pain you and your family must be feeling. Tough things always happen. some worse than others. Stay strong! we are all rooting for you :) 

I am sorry for your loss! 😕 

I am so very sorry for your losses. So very painful 

I completely understand that- My 38 year old niece died in November. They did her Celebration of Life on Saturday. As I was leaving I found out a cousin who had been in hospice passed and an uncle followed fewer than 24 hours later. It's going to get better. It HAS to, right? 

November and December seem to claim a lot of lives. I wonder what the actual statistics are. So sorry for your losses! My husband's best friend from childhood passed, and his older brother, 89, was also coded, but is still hanging in there. Prays for all! 

November and December seem to claim a lot of lives. I wonder what the actual statistics are. So sorry for your losses! My husband's best friend from childhood passed, and his older brother, 89, was also coded, but is still hanging in there. Prays for all! 

Sorry to hear of your sadness and difficult times......Difficult times do not last forever, It is a new year and a new beginning for you and your family ! Look forward and regain your focus on health and well being.... Wishing you all of the best ! :)  

Well that is awful. So sorry to hear it 

Thank you for the kind words and support! I keep looking forward, we have to. Memories are there, but they always will be. I saw my cardiologist today, and they clocked my weight at 226. So that’s good. I’m down from a size 28 to a size 18, and 20 in pants. I have a hard time eating when I’m sad, so I have to remember to keep my intake good and stay upon my protein. My sisters and I came to the realization, that we are now “ orphans” and now cherish our sisterhood and closeness, even more. It will really sink in hard, when we have to see the house! No more safe place to land, or come and be a “girl” again! My parents were in that house for 45 years. That’s a whole lifetime. We will make it through, and things will get better! We are still a bit shell shocked, but doing ok. We all now have a few items of clothing from my dad’s closet, and we wear them lovingly. Thanks again, Bodacious blue eyes❤️❤️❤️❤️ 

Wearing something that belonged to a loved one is like wrapping their arms around you. Such a comfort! 

I kept all my dad”s tools and use them and I kept a lot of my mom”s cooking “stuff” that I remembered using as a kid. Somehow comforting when you are an “orphan”. I was 55 or so when my dad died. That’s the first thing my sister and I thought about. We are now orphans. I still treat my kids and my extended kids like they were — well, kids. At their ages they now relish that there is someone and someplace they can still go to and not have to be a real adult.  

Very sorry to hear of your loss! 

Kenna, I will e doing the same thing. I have special bowls and cooking tools my mom used a lot, and I will be collecting these on our next trip down. You are so right, that adult kids still need a place where being an adult fallsaway and you can just be a kid again, when we sell the house, it will be gone. Saying goodbye, will be hard.  

Bodaciousblueeyes— I still “talk” to my dad all the time. If I am pondering a decision I run it passed him just like I would if he were there. Then I listen in my head to his voice of reason. . Crazy works.