alllicat's Journal, 15 April 2010

Okay, I'm still feeling the funk. I had an annoying morning at work yesterday, which effected my mood all day long. Once I left, I felt a million times better, but I'm kicking the crank.

Down another full pound. 41lbs. I feel really good, but I still feel like the "before picture." Everyone comments on how 40 pounds is a lot of weight. Why don't I feel like it? I look in the mirror, and I still don't see much change. I mean, sure my stomach is a bit flatter, but I can still push it out for the "pregnant lady" look. Well, I guess I don't look like Octo-mom anymore when I do that. I also feel embarrassed when people comment on how much weight I lost. I want to hear that I look great, but at the same time, it's embarrassing to bring it up. Did I really look that terrible before? I don't know.

On a brighter note, totally going to a Yankees game on Sunday. My first of the season, and I cannot wait. I am totally going to splurge and have some cracker jacks, which is by far my favorite bar park treat. I bought a new t-shirt yesterday. Last July, I bought an Adult Small shirt (with Mark Teixeira's name and number on the back, of course), and I thought that it was cool that it was a small. Of course, it was men's sizes and not women's. This year, I went to Modell's and bought a Kid's Large, I could have gotten away with a medium, but I wanted a little bit of room, so I could wear a long sleeve t-shirt underneath it. That was my exciting moment of the day yesterday.

Well, that's all I've got for the day. I'm going to try to get a walk in, because I'm not going to yoga tonight. Don't have time, but I'll try to get some sort of exercise in.

Diet Calendar Entry for 15 April 2010:
874 kcal Fat: 38.75g | Prot: 40.50g | Carb: 94.00g.   Breakfast: Vitalicious Golden Corn Vitatops, Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla Coffee. Lunch: Oscar Mayer 98% Fat Free Honey Roasted Turkey Breast , Borden Cheese Singles, Mission Life Balance Whole Wheat Tortilla Plus!. Dinner: Ruby Minis. Snacks/Other: Cherry Gummy Sharks. more...

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I totally know how you feel - I HATE going out and having people ask me "How much have you lost?!" Its embarassing to tell them that I've lost almost 120 lbs - it tells them how FAT I really was! I just wish I could go somewhere that no one knew me 2 years ago - would be nice. And about the Yankee game - they just called me!! LOL No joke though - remember that game last year that was the 2nd longest rain delay EVER? Yeah, we were at that one..... they are giving everyone who held tickets for that game a free game this year. Don't know what date we will pick yet though - can you tell I'm not a big baseball fan? lol Anyway, have a great day, and get outa your funk woman!! ( ; 
15 Apr 10 by member: MomofTwoGirls
I know it's hard (really hard!) but you can't focus on what you looked like before. Focus on here and now. If you keep looking back into the past you can't push forward. Sounds corny--but it's true! I have a bad habit of thinking about how I looked "before." And I know it keeps me from fully enjoying the moment I'm in and giving myself credit for the work I've done. It's just another way we beat ourselves up. Look forward. You've done some big work and you're still sticking with it!  
15 Apr 10 by member: beets_yum
Hey Alli- I feel the same way... I haven't lost as much as you by any means, but seeing yourself change is really hard. I just looked a few pictures of myself from back when I know I was about 8-10lbs lighter than I am now, and while I can tell a little, I still remember feeling that I looked exactly the same (which is probably why I don't notice myself gaining weight)... You are doing AWESOME!! Don't get discouraged, and keep up the awesome work. 
16 Apr 10 by member: SturgeonQueen

     
 

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