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I did horrible this weekend, hence no recordings. Actually Friday night we went to this BBQ place and had nachos with pork appetizer. They were delicious, didn't eat them all and I must say, by the time my meal came (BBQ chicken, sweet potato's and Spanish rice and beans) I was only able to eat a little of the chicken. The food wasnt that great, I ate a few bites of sweet potato and the Spanish rice was horrible. The remainder of the meal was trashed so maybe I didn't have that bad of an eating Friday. Oh yes, a slither of cake. I didn't exercise for two days straight. 5 days of exercise seems really weird since I've been doing 7 days. I ate oddly on Sunday and Saturday. Overall a bad eating weekend for me. But it's Monday so that means getting back on track. Of course I won't expect to see a weight loss of Wednesday, but I have come to terms with that. The OCD side of me had a plan of getting up in the morning to go to the gym to burn 500 calories on the elliptical and then in the evenings when I come home burn another 500 on the treadmill until Wednesday which would burn 3,000 calories close to the 3,500 calorie mark which burns a pound of fat. Then I realized that this idea was INSANE.
I get nervous and I sabotage my goals because despite the fact that I've been losing weight I can't ever see myself reaching the goal I set for myself. I reason with myself and I still find myself falling off the wagon. Nightly, I map out a plan to reach my goal, which I have decided could possibly be the middle of January if I were to continue to lose weight. I have mini goals for myself such as by the 10th be at 164 because I am having this major hair treatment done to my hair and I haven't seen my hairdresser in 6 weeks. She probably won't even notice the weight loss. December 14th is my birthday so I want to be at 162, December 24th I am going to see my parents so I want to be at 160, December 31st will be the beginning of the new year so I would like to be 158 and then my cousin is likely having a 40th bday party in Michigan that I would like to attend, I believe in the middle of January and that is when I want to be at my goal weight of 155. So many goals and no room for error. Gotta figure out why I sabotage myself. I've reached so many goals in my life, harder ones then losing weight I need to examine myself and figure out my problem. Anyway, I meet the personal trainer tonight. This should be interesting.
Diet Calendar Entries for 06 December 2010:
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752 kcal
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Fat: 18.09g | Prot: 49.62g | Carb: 101.25g.
Breakfast: banana, Regular Flavor Instant Oatmeal. Snacks/Other: 100 Calorie Packs Cocoa Roast Almonds (Emerald), Total 0% Greek Yogurt. more...
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2144 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 40 minutes, Running (jogging) - 5/mph - 10 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 10 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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