Eillieb's Journal, 05 October 2020

Ellie, I'm so sorry your family member was so mean to you, but remember, other people do not define us, WE DEFINE OURSELVES!!! You know what you want and you can do this. So finish that little pity-party, wash your face and get to work girl. 💛💜💚 

Take the anger and use it to focus on your goals. I have people like this in my family who have belittled me and my immediate family to my face for years. Guess what? I've succeeded where they've failed. Find joy in each day, work towards your own goals and live your own life. Chances are, their ugly words are more reflective of them than you. Screw the haters. 

There is something wrong going on with that person that they're saying that to you: remember that it's not about you, it's about them. They're fucked in the head right now. It can be hard to pick yourself up sometimes, but the first step is the hardest. Once you get back up it will get easier. Go prove that toxic SOB wrong. 

So let me see if I get this right— some EXTENDED family member said things to you that you have now decided are important enough so that it affects your life, your schoolwork, your personal goals, that you cry and binge, etc.? That’s a lot of power to give to anyone let alone an EXTENDED family member whose opinion means jack shit. Rethink their importance— rethink the importance of ANYONE in your life who sets up those kinds of roadblocks to your success. You can do this. Put yourself first. 

looks like the family tree needs to be printed. Trim off that branch and don't waste any more of your precious time in them.  

use their word as motivation that's what has always made me succeed in life. last time my mother spoke to me she said you will never be able to loose all that pregnancy weight without surgery you just don't have in you 6 months later I'm 80lbs down and still going everytime she says I can't I say to myself I can and I will sadly I never do it for myself but to prove her wrong but in turn it benefits me. 

I 100% agree with Shirley. It's a shame dont let others spoil your life. You prove them wrong. We are here to support you. Stay safe and get motivated. 

aww....Ellie just take one day at a time and try to avoid those that are not in your support group. You are in charge of your own feelings no one else, no one can make you feel.  

😕 I'm so frustrated for you. that's some massive bs. I'm not gonna repeat what every one is saying (which I agree with everyone) but you got this and you're strong. ❤ 

You must not listen to that person, try to keep them as far as possible. And try not to rush things... I know how you feel, but try to take one step at the time. I know you'll get through this!  

The truth be know they are probably very jealous of you and your accomplishments. When someone is miserable they try to tear others down to build themselves up. Don't take it personal. But also don't be their whipping post. Just do some unfriending and move on without that person in your life They are not worth your time. But You are worth it so take care of yourself.  

Youll get there eventually❤💞 

You’ve got this! Anyone who says something unkind to you isn’t worth your time, family or not. Don’t let stupid people get in your way! You are gorgeous and deserve better!  

I hate when people are so hateful. Just keep going forward. U got this!💕 

Miserable people who treat others poorly. You deserve love and encouragement and kindness. mean people can SUCK IT. You got this beautiful!! 

Be strong for yourself. You certainly don't need that person in your life. You can drop that weight quickly, it isn't that much. Might be a lot of water weight too. You are okay.  

The person that told you those ugly things only reflect how they "feel" about themselves...so they want to drag you down right with them. The best way to get back at someone like that is to remove them from your life...and deal with them ONLY when necessary.  

As a dancer you were probably a lot more active. Same thing happened to my daughter. But realize that your body will change when you give up a sport. It’s inevitable. Focus first on stabilizing your weight and then work on where you want to be. You are a beautiful girl - with that you will always have people who will want to make you feel that you are less than. Don’t let people get in the way of your success. Last thing LoL. Never let one bad day, week etc. take away your hope and confidence. One thing that is guaranteed is that things constantly change. Lecture over! 🖤🖤 

Thank you all for ur kind words quick update I confronted my great aunt and told her I will no longer talk to her if she continues to belittle me and so she continued to say hurtful things and well now we are not on speaking terms I really appreciate you all supporting me in my journey and please know I’m sending love to all of you 💕 I’ve decided to go back to therapy so that I will have a safe and efficient place to vent instead of venting to all of you( not that you guys arnt helping but u all don’t need the burden of my issues ) love u 😊💕❤️ 

You can vent to me anytime.