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I'm back, I'm back, I'm back! For really real, I am back. I have been skirting the edges of a black hole, I almost fell in, but thank the Lord, I have been pulled back. It's amazing to me how difficult this fall has been, and what a slump it has put me in. But today, for the first time, I really feel like myself. Hill and I went and had a nice dinner this evening, then I made a quick trip into the Hobby Lobby next door to buy some Christmas themed ribbon for a marketing idea I have for work. I wandered around the seasonal department, looked at all the Christmas pretties and spent a lot of time inhaling fall. I realized that I am wasting a time of joy--and this time around I get the privilege to determine what that will look like. Fall does not have to be defined for me by old traditions or the way someone else has structured it in my life to this point. I have the power to make this time of year anything I want it to be. How many times in life do we really have the freedom to do this?! I am excited, and reenergized. This is MY life, right now, at this moment, and I can make it what I want--and I can make it healthier and thus happier! So back, back, back to good food. Back, back, back to being energized about exercise. I am ready to embrace the thrill of the early rush of healthy eating and living, and to continue to shed my old negativity. And really, that negativity is an old habit that I must learn to do without; it is as hard to break as old eating and couch potato habits, but as with all habits it can be replaced with new habits. I'm going to take O8willbegreat's advice and create my own Un-Pandora's box, and fill it with the things that can motivate me and make me happy. The first item to go in that box is y'all! So grateful y'all have hung in with me, and I can't wait to resume my place here.
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