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30 December 2012

I am waiting until January 2nd for an exact weigh-in, however I know I am getting close to 190. Ugh. All of that work last year and and I'm back to being close to my highest weight recorded. At least I hide it well. I can feel it all over me though, and it is becoming more and more unbearable. I am very uncomfortable in my own skin again. My clothes are tight again.

There are so many reasons for this, not the least of which being that I started a new job as a therapist (which has been very stressful) and I finally quit smoking. So my life has been going well and I am achieving the goals that I have set forth for myself; however I let my health/weight goals go to the wayside.

I really started to pack on weight in the past couple of months, especially December. December is a tough month for a lot of people because of the holidays and lack of sunlight. I have been getting used to working full time again and learning a new job is never easy. It's not an excuse, it is a reason why I haven't stopped for very long to assess my weight situation and grab the reins to regain control. Until now.

About two weeks ago I stopped smoking cigarettes altogether. I am using a personal vaporizer to help me reduce my addition to nicotine, and I am proud of myself for finally letting go of the nasty tobacco habit. The subconscious stress of letting go of something may have made it even harder for me to have a turn around on my other bad habits (re: eating too much.) Of course, having all sorts of holiday cookies around to curb craving hasn't helped either.

Now that I have finished assessing some of the reasons why I have come to be this larger more uncomfortable size, I can focus on the future and what I plan to do. So many people decide to start fresh come the new year. Holidays are over and it is an easy way to chart new success on a visual calendar, among other reasons. 2013 could be the year I finally do it, and for good reason. 2012 started out strong because I had a wedding to prepare for. Once the wedding was over I wanted to look good for the summer, but once my last fieldwork ended I became stressed out over studying for the liscencing exam and things started going down hill fast after I stopped making green drinks and heading to the gym.

This year I have much more stability, as I can concentrate solely on a few things since I have less change happening in my life. I have a full time job now and can stop worrying so much about "making it." I have my Mon-Fri life at work, and I will spend a great deal of energy developing professionally. However, outside of that I am unlimited in what I can spend my energy on. Therefore, I don't think it would be unreasonable to dedicate a good portion of my energy on becoming healthy. Healthy doesn't necessarily mean "thin" to me. I want to be thin, and hopefully becoming thing will be a byproduct of becoming healthy, but it isn't necessarily the ultimate goal. I am interested in real health, which at this point to me means that I will need to be eating more whole foods, raw foods, organic foods, etc. Less processed, fried, chemicalized foods. I will also need to get in shape by harnessing the power of my body in multiple ways, partially at the gym. I realize that I have been going about things wrong. If I can stick to these principles and merge my current habits with healthy ones, I foresee myself wanting the healthier options more over time. I will hopefully at that point be able to really see the benefits. Now that I no longer smoke tobacco and my body doesn't have to continuously fight again the tar and 4000+ chemicals I was ingesting daily, it should benefit even more from whole foods and real nutrition. It's time to immerse myself in health by reading and doing the homework to find out what health really means. I fully intend to spend my time also focusing on my mental and spiritual health. Becoming a more peaceful, self fulfilled person will in turn make it easier to focus on physical health.

2013 looks promising already. My mindset is a good one and I intend to do things right. Here's to a good year ahead, filled with a focus on overall health and wellbeing. Cheers!

01 May 2012

27 April 2012

Weigh-in: 174.2 lb lost so far: 10.8 lb still to go: 24.2 lb Diet followed reasonably well
   add comment losing 1.4 lb a week

23 April 2012

20 April 2012

Weigh-in: 175.6 lb lost so far: 9.4 lb still to go: 25.6 lb Diet followed reasonably well
   add comment losing 2.4 lb a week

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