It should be no secret. I gained weight yet again. Am I discouraged tho? Definitely not. It's more motivation to get back on the fat horse and race my fat ass to skinny finish line. I'm more motivated than ever.
I went to visit my boyfriend (son's father) for 10 days last week and it was hard for him to be "turned on" by me & all of my fat. when he met me, i was a skinny 5'4 135lb knockout. now that i've given birth to his son, and packed on 80+ additional lb's he seems uninterested and unattracted to me. his attitude is short and tart when it comes to the way he communicates with me. i see it in his eyes, he's repulsed by my new "temporary" body. should i be upset? i can't be upset. this body type isn't what attracted him to me when we first met. should he be more considerate of the fact that i just gave birth to his son almost 9 months ago? yes. and he is. but, i don't blame him for wanting me to go back to my pre-pregnancy weight.
he's a big motivator. && because of him & other personal reasons i'm more motivated that ever.
GOAL FOR THIS WEEK : 197 LB