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21 February 2013
Thursday afternoon.
At my desk, trying to work but my mind is full with so many things I can't focus.
House hunting is not working well. I visited different places, all were depressing. I AM NOT living in a dark, smelly, old basement even if it's cheap. I deserve light and fresh air. I need to stop being afraid, I need to make the big jump and believe that I can make a living with my new career and I can afford a real house on my own. Maybe if I believe in it it will happen?
Back on track with food, at least I am recording and paying attention. I'm struggling with my body image these days. The lack of training is showing I hate to see all my efforts lost under the fat. I've bever been a fan of cardio, and surprisingly I dreamed I was running last night, it felt so good! Time for spring to show up so I can go out there without my big snow boots.
I can't see regular lifting back in my schedule though. I don't know how to fit it in. Maybe getting up earlier...
Going to school this weekend, I have to study for the last exam before the final.
Sorry not to comment on your journals... Have a great day buddies!
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15 February 2013
Friday night.
I had good news today about car insurance. The first company I went to charged me $1400 per year and I thought I would shop around and find a better deal. I have a clean record for the last 18 years, that gotta count for something. Finally, I got it. $898!
It is time to take better care of myself. Now I found the car, the house should be ok too, I need to focus on my studies and my health. I will be planning my meals for the next week and go shopping and cooking this weekend. I may be able to workout too. I miss it so much.
I had a bad time at the clinic today. I had to leave the room during my last treatment. The cramps were so bad I couldn't see anymore and I almost passed out. I forgot my advil at home, thought I could make it but didnt. This can't happen anymore I feel so bad about it. I can say I was scared tonight, and the other therapists too! I called for help from the back room, I was sitting there dripping sweat and shivering lol the girls didn't know what was going on!
The cramps are usually bad, and this last months with all the stress it's been worse. It seems that my body is rejecting the IUD more when I am tired.
It's a wake up call, a reminder that I have the willpower to push myself and get things done, but my body can also tell me to stop. I realize that for the last twelve months or so, I never caught my breath. Crossfit competition last March (that was fun but the training was tough), then met thomas and started running around and help him with his projects all summer, then went through the break-up, joined the massage school, ran even more with the epidemy of pneumonia on the animals last fall, and finally spent the winter... well, kept running to make everything work. I need a break!
Have a great weekend my friends!
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14 February 2013
Thursday morning.
I am counting the days until I can go back to a healthier routine, to my old habits... I guess I could do better in the food department, if I don't have time to exercise at least I could watch what I eat! Usual pmsing, cravings came back this week and I didn't do very well to control them. My goal is to get back to meal planning. I used to be good at it, and lately I've been doing so many other things I haven't had time to even think about what to eat until I get hungry!
It feels good to have an employee at the farm. I still have to be out there this week to help, but he's learning fast and by tomorrow he should be ok by himself to do the basic tasks.
My roommate is coming back on Tuesday next week. This time, no cream/butter/oil/pasta/rice/sugar meals!
Everything else is going well, I will visit the house on Sunday. I met the lady two days ago, very nice family. My studies are going well too, still a lot of work to do but I will get there.
Insurance companies are giving me a hard time, since I drive a company car for the last 6 years I need a document to prove I have been driving and I have a clean record. It should be done by the end of the week and then I will get my new car!
Have a great day buddies!
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11 February 2013
Monday morning.
Things are moving faster. On friday I bought a car, I didn't expect to find something so soon but it was I think a good deal and I made the jump. Hard decision to make on my own, I don't know much about cars and I wish there was a man giving me advice. But! I did it anyway!
Tonight I am meeting a lady who owns a house in calgary and would rent the basement. She rents this house to her ex husband, he works out of town most of the time. I would have the whole house to myself except when he is off work one week a month. The deal is he has a dog and she takes care of it when he's gone, but would like to be able to leave her with me. I like this deal, it allows me to have my dog, a nice house with a fenced yard and taking care of one or two dogs doesn't make a difference!
I didn't have much time to study this weekend, I needed to catch up with house cleaning, moving thing in the garage to make room for my new car, inventory of my stuff, car insurance, storage units etc...
I was also offered more hours at the clinic, the receptionnist is leaving and it would be nice to make some money if things are slow as a therapist (starting my career, I know things will be slow). But I can't leave the farm right now, and with the exams, and the moving thing I am not sure I can commit to more work. We'll see!
Have a fantastic week buddies!
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04 February 2013
Monday Morning.
Quick journal before I go back to work.
As I suspected, things were going too well with the new employee and he never showed up. I'm lucky I had another candidate and he accepted the job, but of course he can't be here this week. So... Here I am on my own, fortunately it is only one week.
House hunting is a full time job!! I found 3 places, sharing house because the rents are way too expensive for myself. I need to get my new career in good shape before I can afford a house.
I also need a car, and it will take some time, which I don't have.
I'm starting my new job on April 1st. My finals are on March 16th and 17th. I need to quit the farm as soon as possible, but in the same time I need to study and the thought of packing my stuff and move is discouraging.
Would someone come here and help? Lol!
One day at the time. I will do it!
Don't ask me about exercise and diet, I know I eat the same food than usual, and between massages and feeding the animals I should be active enough. But I can't say I'm feeling very healthy! Last Saturday I got so stressed out, I ended up unable to move my neck and shoulder. After my last massage I wanted to cry, it hurt so much! My boss Kari forced me to stop and get on the table and she worked on my neck muscles. It really helped, and I spent some time in a hot bath that night.
Oh well! This is a crazy time and it will all be better soon!
Thinking of you buddies...
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