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29 October 2007
OK, yesterday, Sunday, was the end of my first two weeks on this diet. It's getting easier. My hubby says it takes 3 weeks (21 days) to change a habit, but I can feel this one already changing. I had sunflower seeds, cashews and an orange juice (on the road on the way to church) for breakfast; some grapes for lunch; a fish filet, pan fried in EVOO, with saffron rice and frozen veggies and kimchee for supper; another handful of grapes before bed. Forget the kimchee next time; it was doing the samba in my intestines all night long! I was craving something with a sharp, spicy taste. The hardest part of this diet is that it's so bland and boring. After week 2, today I'm technically at teh beginning of the Weeks 3-4 phase, and I can have more foods, but I think they're nuts and seafood -- which technically I've already been having occasionally. So there's nothing really exciting about this next phase, except I feel proud of myself for sticking with a pretty rigid diet for 2 weeks without a single fudging episode. I crave carbs MUCH LESS now. The first week was hard; after dinner I SO wanted something sweet. Now the grapes seem to do it for me. I wonder if my metabolism is slowing down? I have an exercise bike on the front porch, but it's dusty, and when I try to ride, the dust blows up in my face (boo hoo). I'm going to have to brave it. I don't want to slow down to adjust to this new amount of calories per day. Grocery shopping has been hard; I've been sending hubby with a list, and he comes back with beef sticks and kimchee. Geez. For me, he bought bananas, grapes, more canned albacore tuna, and I think that's it. Oh, more organic eggs. And organic milk, but I"m not sure how I can use it yet. I have no real craving for it; eating lots of cottage/ricotta cheese/yogurt now. Yesterday I wore my black jeans to church. I haven't been able to fit into them for a couple of months now, so that felt really, really good. I got a shorter haircut, too, just to celebrate my beauty. I might dye my hair red. I want to look different.
Sometimes I daydream about the things I can do when I'm thinner. Appear in public. Travel. See people from my past. Be physically active. Swim at the beach. Confront anyone, any time. Put myself OUT THERE. Wear makeup. Shop in the non-plussed section (hehehe). Order from catalogs and know things will probably fit. NOT always look for the biggest available size of things. Work out at Curves. Have my double chin lifted (unless it disappears on its own. it is my LEAST favorite body part, by far. Second is my belly. Third, my sagging breasts, although they still look pretty good in the right bra. Fourth, and rising, my gigantic upper arms.) I'm going to buy a leather jacket again when I can get one in a SIMPLE XL. Then, when I'm just a L, I'll give the XL to a fatter friend. I have a beautiful pink suede blazer in my closet, wrapped up and waiting for me, unworn, that I bought when I broke my ankle. Couldn't wear it then, and then I gained so much weight recuperating that I never did get to wear it. But I WILL!
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27 October 2007
Yesterday was:
green tea
1 cup mixed ricotta and cottage cheese, both fat free, and 1/4 cup artificially sweetened peach yogurt.
For lunch, this soup I made:
2 cans beans
1 large can organic diced tomatoes
1/2 cup frozen pepper/onion stir fry vegetables sauteed in 1 Tbsp olive oil
It was really pretty good!
Dinner was another bowl of the soup -- but then before bed, I was so hungry and so miserable I ate a whole can of white albacore tuna, rinsed, with fresh lemon and salt. Mmmm.
Today's Saturday. I have given up Chinese buffet lunch with my daughter, a saturday tradition, so I can stick with this plan. Hubby is making me my hot green tea for breakfast. Maybe some eggs?
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27 October 2007
Weigh-in:
200.0 lb
lost so far:
99.0 lb
still to go:
30.0 lb
Diet followed 100%
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losing 138.6 lb a week
26 October 2007
Yesterday was the 11th day of my diet. I ate a huge Breakfast, cooked by my hubby: 2 eggs with 1/2 cup ricotta cheese, scrambled and fried in 1 Tbsp. EVOO; 1 smoothie made with 1/4 cup orange juice, 1/2 cup nonfat plain yogurt and 1 cup frozen fruit; Cup of green tea. Lunch, Vegetable soup made in microwave cooking bag, (1/2 bag of frozen stir fry veggies, 1 cup water, 1/2 tsp. chicken base paste); Dinner, two small corn tortillas, 2 Tbsp. cooked white rice, 2 Tbsp. cooked canned beans with mushrooms, 2 Tbsp. homemade salsa. Beverages were water water water water, 2 cups herb tea, 1 cup green tea, 2 cups low-sodium V8 juice. Blech.
Today is Day #12. I'm enjoying a bowl of fatfree cottage cheese/ricotta cheese with 3 oz. low-fat peach yogurt stirred in for breakfast. I ate a small ruby grapefruit, sliced, earlier. Today I'm going to make a bean soup out of canned beans and some mushrooms sauteed in olive oil. It's a challenge thinking of ways to combine these foods into anything appealing.
What I eat:
Unlimited fresh and frozen fruit.
Unlimited fresh and frozen vegetables.
2 eggs or 1 cup fatfree yogurt or 1 cup fatfree cottage cheese or ricotta
Extra virgin olive oil and sesame oil
Steamed fish filets
Canned beans
White or brown rice
2 corn tortillas
Balsamic vinegar
Homemade salsa
Horseradish
SOUPS have been helpful to me. I've been making the soups in a microwave bag (LOVE those things!)so they are quick to create and simple. Hot food seems to take the edge off my appetite better than cold.
Some days, I live for those tortillas. They are the only tasty carbs on the diet.
I'm getting sick of fruit, especially the kind we can get in central Florida. Great citrus, but all the peaches and avocados are totally overripe in the store. I like red grapes, but getting a little burnt out on them since I left a bag in the car for two days and then tried to eat them anyway. I miss the Jewel Food Stores fruit we could get in the Midwest. Such selection! I am eating a granny smith apple a day, if I can. I wish I could make it more savory somehow, with salt, or perhaps dip it in gravy.
My seafood has been all tilapia all the time, but I have a bag of frozen grouper filets in there waiting. My husband cooked me a shrimp scampi one night -- fresh shrimp sauteed with garlic and frozen stir-fry veggies in evoo, served over rice. It was extravagant, but I ended up being mad that he forgot the mushrooms. It was good, but I'm getting desperate for something that tastes GOOD ENOUGH. Like a pumpkin pie Blizzard from Daily Queen, or a bowl of buttered popcorn. Both, maybe.
There's this eternal struggle going on in my head at all times, except when I'm actually eating and immediately thereafter. The rest of the time, something keeps popping into my head suggesting I eat as a stress management technique; suggesting what would be tasty right about now; suggesting that I've done well enough on this diet and should get off it for a while; suggesting that I should accept myself fat and be a role model for other fat people; suggesting that I will be gaunt and flabby and even less attractive thin; suggesting that I deserve to be fed, to take care of myself, to feel full and loved. But then I see this other self in my mind tackling that person, saying I don't really need food, it's appetite, not hunger; I can control my stress with exercise and positive thinking and other fun things like music and conversation; I have spent too many years eating junky crap candy and salty snacks and fast food, and need to go completely without those foods for the same number of years, to undo the damage I've done to my body; I have committed to this diet for 6 weeks, not 6 minutes, and I can surely make it that far and then decide if I want to go all the way and lose 100 pounds; I have less respect for fat people than thin, and probably everybody feels that way, and having conquered my food addiction might serve as a great role model for someone in my situation; I am full and loved, whatever my stomach says. I fall asleep watching those two wrestle, listening to them argue.
I've also been craving this vintage stuffed lassie dog I saw on ebay (12.50 plus 23.50 shipping -- they must be delivering it by space shuttle or something -- and that price will increase in the next two days). I got out my old Lassie dog, the little one I bought off ebay when I first was losing my job and my mind. It sleeps by my bed. But she's small, and not like the one I had as a child. I want the big one. The one on ebay now is in pristine condition. Once in a while you can find something like that on ebay, a toy from your own past that someone else got but never played with, stored away somewhere, and it's like time goes backward for your inner child. Another chance at Lassie. I found a Raggedy Ann doll like that, received as a gift by some child, then left behind (had the original hanky in her pocket as well as a note from the old friend and a friendship ring). She wasn't more than $20 and now she sits in a rocking chair made for dolls, on my bureau. I am becoming my grandmother. But this dieting thing is stressful to my inner child and she wants her LASSIE and her RAGGEDY. And a pumpkin pie blizzard.
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22 October 2007
I have been doing this diet one week now, based on what I read in a First magazine about anti-estrogen foods. Yesterday was hard because my 1-hour trip to Orlando ended up taking 6 hours. I bought and ate some pistachio nuts and orange juice on the road -- acceptable foods, but high-cal foods. Today, I had half a rotten peach (yuck!), then made a bowl of red stuff: red bell pepper, tomato slices, and ruby grapefruit. I'm about halfway through that bowl. I also ate a small, overripe avocado. Tonight's supper will be (as usual on this diet) half a bag of frozen vegetables and a tillapia filet, microwaved in one of those new nuker bags. I might use the other half of the veggies to make some soup, using a thimble-full of chicken stock paste. The hot soup seems to feel better than anything else late at night.
I dont' know what I weigh. The last time I had health insurance, I weighed 299, perilously close to that 300 mark. I had vowed to shoot myself in the head if I ever reached 300 pounds. I probably surpassed 300, but since I don't have a scale or a doctor anymore, I can't tell. So that's why I'm still alive. The last time I lost a lot of weight, I waited a whole month before I weighed myself, so I'll never know what I started at in that diet (but I'm estimating it was about 280). Now it might take me a month to get DOWN TO 280. I feel ridiculously huge and self-loathing. But I do feel a little better waking up every day now, knowing that I will be hungry all day and that it's all adding up to (or subtracting down to) something important. I can do this. I did it before, and I'm older and more insulin-resistant now -- but WISER.
I haven't thought much about exercise yet. I did make my husband drag in an ancient exercycle out of someone's trash, and it's on the front porch, but the porch is so crowded I can't climb on it. Yet. I did some housework today, mostly dishes and orgaizing, cleaning my Feng Shui WEALTH corner of dust and clutter. I'm supposed to be doing a sample edit for an environmentalist, but here I am instead.
OH, and even though I don't have a scale, I can tell I'm losing weight by the way my shorts fit. So this is working. How could it not work? I think I'm only eating about 1200 cals a day and almost all of them are fruits, vegetables and lean fish. Hoo yah!
It feels nice having someone to talk to, even if it's only me.
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