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05 March 2011

Weigh-in: 188.9 lb

lost so far: 66.1 lb

still to go: 58.9 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

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23 February 2011

Tonight I get a ten year chip for staying clean and sober for ten years. I have been hesitating about accepting it because I have been indulging my food addiction for a while. A friend is making me a coconut creme pie for my birthday and although I know it is feeding my addiction - I will probably choose to eat one or two pieces of it. But I have decided that tomorrow I will rededicate myself to Atkins as I did in the beginning. No more sugar, junk, sugar free candies, Atkins bars or aspartame sodas. It will be difficult and I will have to struggle but I can get through it with the help of my friends on this and other sites. I still need to learn to cook and like other veggies so I will have to eat my regular salad until I master that. I've gained 12 lbs. since I stopped sticking to the Atkins program. I am lucky it wasn't 50. I've still kept off 65 lbs. and that is an accomplishment. My problems continue but I can't let them continue to throw me off my food plan. I felt much calmer, more confident and happier when I stayed on the Atkins plan. I respected myself more, I was proud I could work on overcoming my food addiction. I can have all of that back by just choosing to go back to Basics. My husband won't get well because I am eating right but I will be able to cope with his illness and our other marital problems more easily. I am sorry I let myself and my buddies down but I can change those feelings and rededicate myself to my buddies too. It's time to stop making excuses for not doing my exercises too. Starting tomorrow I will start some kind of exercising again. Thanks for all your support through the good times and through my struggles. Tomorrow is a bright new day and I am looking forward to it. Love, Andrea

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22 February 2011

Today is a good day because I have finally managed to avoid those sugar-free candies I've been eating like crazy. Yesterday not so good because I was in my second car accident for the week both my fault. My husband and I are having marital problems. The Mayo Clinic decided not to do follow-up testing even though they have no idea what my husband has. His doctor is now considering Chronic Fatigue Syndrome but I'm more inclined to think Gulf War Syndrome since it isn't MS (thank God!). I am doing some walking but haven't started my other exercises yet. I need to do that 5 min. trick where I tell myself I only have to go 5 min. but then I usually do more once I actually get started. Still need to get off diet sodas but figured I would focus first on getting rid of the candy. I weighed 189 this morning which is 12 lbs. over my lowest weight. The best news that I have to report is that I haven't given up hope and I struggle every day to do better. I have to close for now to take my puppy out.

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10 February 2011

I am still struggling with my food obsessions and compulsions. Today I ate a whole bag of sugar free chocolates. Only 6 net carbs but hundreds of calories and they will probably give me the runs like overeating the sugar free taffy does. Since I haven't has a car I haven't tried to buy taffy today. I will be going to Walmart to walk tonight so I have to have a plan to combat my cravings. Eating first would help. Telling my husband I don't want to buy the candy will help. Reminding myself why I want to lose weight will help. I listened to a CD today on Obsessive-compulsive
disorder and it talked about obsessions and compulsions are cause by a brain being stuck in a groove. Only ignoring the compulsion (to eat) and performing a new constructive activity will allow the compulsion to ease.
Easier said than done but possible for sure. Maybe I will take my list of why I want to lose weight with me to the store and read it while I am walking. Or maybe I will listen to my Ipod and enjoy music to help relieve my stress. Obviously I have to do something different to correct my overeating and cravings.
One thing I've noticed is that I am extremely hungry when I first wake up but I have been too lazy to cook so I have been grabbing other foods that shouldn't be my first choice. Maybe I need to eat more veggies at night so I am not so hungry in the am. And maybe I can prepare some allowed foods ahead like celery sticks or a breakfast that just needs to be reheated.
I haven't been praying like I should and that is the most important stress reliever I have. I need to journal too so I can keep track of why I am craving and my successes and suggestions to help me do better.
Exercise would definitely help too. I just need to go back to the beginning with my exercise and say I will only have to do it for 5 minutes then I can quit. Usually once I do 5 minutes I feel like going longer and eventually I am back on track. I also told myself I only needed to exercise every other day in the beginning but I began to feel like exercising every day very soon. I need to go back to what worked in the beginning. Oh recording all my food in fatsecret also really helped me so I need to get back to that habit as well.
Still waiting to hear if the Mayo Clinic or our family doctor are going to do more tests to help my husband. I appreciate all the prayers.
Tonight I am definitely going to eat the salad that gives me my 12 veggies. The thought for the day is to go back to the basics.
My puppy is still shy but enjoying doggy day care and doing wonderful in obedience class. I need to close now as she just woke up and needs attention. Have a great day!

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06 February 2011

Well I am still struggling with my food because I have been overdoing the macadamias and the sugar free taffy and the snack bars and my diet drinks. As of today everything will be dropped from my food plan but my sodas. I have about a six pack left to drink then I am quitting the soda too. I am going to start exercising again beginning tomorrow (maybe tonight if I can get motivated enough).
I am feeling stressed about my husband's health and my sister being back in the mental hospital. Mostly I am stressed about being off my food plan and gaining weight. I am doing much better with the vegetables (eating my salads again). I am learning what I need to stay away from a little at a time. I can still drink the shakes without a problem. After I get off the computer I am going to make some menu plans to stay on track. Now I am going to post on my buddies journals. Have a great night!

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