Instantcrazy's Journal

Well there it is. My final weight for 2014. I got down to 175 and my brain decided we were starving to death. No brain, we are fine. Relax.

I'm having a really stressful day to the point that my brain is trying to push my eyeballs out of my face. I really wanted to just buy a dozen chocolate covered donuts, and then considered asking the Salvation Army bell ringer I was sharing a foyer with if I promised not to kill him would he stop ringing the bell. Fortunately for me I'm broke, so no donuts, and fortunately for the bell ringer I feel really guilty when I swat at flies in my house, so he's gonna live to ring another day. Ready to go home and hide under the covers, but I have about 3 more hours to work.

HOW EXCITING IS TODAY!!!?

HAPPY WINTER SOLSTICE!!

Today is a day for new beginnings! The final day of the solar year. After this the sun starts to come back, and the seasons start to renew! I FEEL LIKE DANCING!

MERRY YULE!!!!

OK y'all listen up! I know there's a few of us on here dreading the long winter and wishing Christmas was over, and basically stuffing our faces getting ready to not starve during the season of no green. ANYWAY...This is what I decided to do this year...You can take it or leave it, and just so you know I'm an atheist with Taoist tendencies. I decided I was done with Christmas and I was gonna kick it old school, as in Pagan.

THIS SUNDAY DECEMBER 21st is the winter solstice, and the longest night of the year. Historically the winter solstice was celebrated on the 25th of December according to the Julian calendar, hmm... The solstice was celebrated as the returning of the sun and the NEW YEAR! After that day the days start getting longer and the sun starts to return to warm the Earth. That day is considered a day of rebirth. A day of optimism. A day to let it all go and look forward to everything anew. A day when the dark relinquishes itself to the light.

I decided this year my christmas tree, the evergreen a sign of life and renewal, is a solstice tree. I've decorated it with fruit light up with white lights as symbols of the sun, and pine cones to represent the earth. I made an evergreen wreath with colorful ornaments as a symbol of the circle of the year. I will fill my house with herbs and incense to cleanse it for the new year. I intend on the night of the solstice to light candles outside in my driveway, as many as I can find to fend of the darkness. I will burn a yule log outside and write down all the things I want to release from this year, and throw the paper into the fire. I will be free from all the negative things that have happened this year. The new year will be clean to make a fresh start.

Yes, I am that weird neighbor everyone will be talking about, but I don't care! 2014 was a horrible year for me. So many bad things happened. I need to release this year to eternity and move forward to the new year. If celebrating the new year at the winter solstice means I get to do that 10 days before everyone else, then HELL YES! If you want to have your own little new year celebration on Sunday then GO FOR IT! Light a candle. Burn your own little release list. This is a great day to celebrate!

"On the longest night, we look for the light, and we find it deep within"

Lisa Thiel Winter Solstice Song

OMG DONALD DUCK AND HIS FAMILY EAT TURKEY FOR CHRISTMAS! I think I'm gonna be sick. Doesn't that make him a cannibal? THE HORROR!

So, I've been busy...

Solstice tree

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I dried oranges and apples for my tree. Then I found the pine cones under a tree at work. It's pretty cool when the lights shine through the oranges. I made this wreath for the front of my house. Not sure if I like it or not. I glued glitter inside half ornaments and wrapped a hula hoop with a garland. I wanted it to be fuller. Next year I guess. Part of the problem is now all I can hear is the Chipmunk's Christmas song where Alvin keeps asking for a hula hoop. Sigh. I got the hula hoop at the toy store and they had to bring it from the back store room, and I mean the BACK it was freezing when they handed it to me. Guess kids these days just don't want a hula hoop for Christmas.

My Mom's scarf is almost done. It would be done but there was a giant hornets nest in the middle of the skein and it took two days to undo the knot. If I have time I'm going to make the daughter a pleated spiral scarf from fleece.

Eating has been BAD! Did I mention I have 25 dozen cookies in my kitchen right now? UGH! My family gets together every year and makes cookies. That's 10 people making cookies. I have been too busy to get them out to the neighbors. Did manage to take some to the restaurant and one neighbor, but so far that's it. I like cookies. Darn.

I really can't wait for Christmas to be over. Is that bad?