I'm a bit of a yo-yo dieter unfortunately. I've achieved my goal before, I know how great that made me feel, I know how much happier I was. I want that again.

What I don't want is this constant battle... I lose weight, I gain weight, I lose weight, I gain weight and so on and so on. This isn't just about eating less, this is about re-educating myself about food and exercise. I do abuse food, I pig out without giving my diet a second thought. That HAS to change. I'm so disappointed, disgusted, shocked and a whole lot more at what I've done AGAIN. All that hard work from the last time I dieted, I've not put it all back on, but I've put about a stone back on. It took me ages to lose that, I was so happy every time I lost just one pound, then within the space of 3 or so months, I've put 14 of them back on. I have to change, I have to make my life different, I have to stop being so obsessed with food. It seems to make me so happy at the time I'm eating it, but after it's completely opposite. From now on I'm going to try to think of food as nutrition and energy and not as something to have when I'm bored.