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SO here's where I sabotage myself. I had really great intentions this am, was going to do just drink, fruits, veggies, light protein. No carbs at all.
Then I started driving in to work, and I swear my brain was in overdrive thinking about how I could get my carb fix. I thought about McD's, Dunkin Donuts, etc. So instead of turning left into work, I went straight to the bakery and got two muffins (didn't even limit myself to 1!). The muffins are 50% off day-olds, so two is just $1.39, so I rationalize that I should at least buy two!
Got to work and SCARFED those muffins while still in my car - just like a wino sneaking drinks from a paper bag.
Sitting on my car seat were two bananas and an apple, so no excuse!
Now I'm sitting here feeling really guilty about how low I've gone - from where I was losing weight and following the diet well, to today where I'm sneaking snacks all the time, and not having any self-control.
I turn 40 in a week! I had hoped to have a lot of weight off by then, then hoped to just get below 200 by then, then hoped to just get back to 218 by then...
My mom comes in this weekend, and I will enjoy dinner at Outback complete with a steak - love their steak and can't see myself getting just a salad - but I really do need to get this self-sabotaging under control!!!
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226.4 lb
Lost so far: 6.6 lb.
Still to go: 86.4 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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losing 3.9 lb a week
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I come from family of binge eaters! I also will sabotage myself for no good reason other then "I don't want that apple!". I found a way to avoid it. I make a detailed promise to a coworker. Listing what I can not eat, and the exceptions. I do it from anywhere from 12 weeks to 6 months. Right now - I have a can't buy junk food unless it is for my daughter. Only Slim Fast or chicken for lunches. If I go out to meet a friend for lunch, only a 6 inch sub from Subway, and 1 bag of chips. No soda unless diet and that is only if a crazing hits me. If pastries show up at work, can only have 1. Out to eat with hubby, no restrictions. Exercise everyday except Sunday. Always count my calories. No out to lunch by myself.
You get the idea. This way, as I adjust my food & exercise behaviors, I have my word and honor system keeping me in check. I cover all my usual excuse and hedges. I know I will try to find a way to "cheat", thru some loop hole I didn't think of. So I do my best to eliminate all loop holes!
You might want to give it a try. Start with only a week or two so you can find out your loop holes.
21 Mar 12 by member: jessabridge4444
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By the way, I don't make a promise to hubby because he always gives in. He will tell me it is ok to skip exercise, or have some ice cream. I promise to a coworker that I am not super close to. That way, I will not call her and beg to get out of my promise just so I can have some Burger King.
21 Mar 12 by member: jessabridge4444
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i understand completely. it's like you're on autopilot and know you should stop, turn around, or throw it away. but nope. into the mouth it all goes.
21 Mar 12 by member: JessWhatINeeded
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jessabridge4444 - I'll have to try that, actually write down what I'll allow myself to have - maybe that would be a way to limit the binging, but not totally drive myself crazy - I see for instance you allow yourself a bag of chips at Subway, I could do something like that, allow certain foods at certain times.
21 Mar 12 by member: HeatherKM
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Exactly! It is there to stop the sabotage. I find that if a binge eater limits themselves too much, a binge is inevitable. Give yourself some leeway...it might help.
21 Mar 12 by member: jessabridge4444
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