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Hello forum ,
First of all , thank you for commenting on my last journal entry ( the one I talked about how I feel bad about myself and low self esteem issue) I read all your comments thank you for helping me out ...I really feel better now.
Today I bought bento in a milk tea cafe because I was so lazy to cook ...I'm planning to do no dinner week this week . So just no eat dinner at all ~ and just eat regularly , but maybe I should cook , because they put a lot of greasy content in the bento that makes people fat ~
I'm preparing for my upcoming tech interview now ....everyday is stressful but I try to make myself feel less stressed but thinking positively . I'm still young and It's never too late to change career route , its never too late to loose a few extra pounds , nothing is too late ~ so I shouldn't feel bad about anything at all . I'm young and I'm alive? Isn't this good enough?
Something happened in my family , my mother went to see doctor and the doctor told her that she has breast cancer , stage 0 . She tried to hided from me but eventually she decided to let me know, I remember crying so hard when I know that she has cancer. She told me stage 0 can be treated and will not threaten her life in anyways but I still worry a lot about her . I just hope she gets well and her surgery is coming up and she will have a successful surgery.
My parents divorced when I was very young and my mom raised me up all by herself ,and I wanted her to have a good life that is why I wanted to switch to software engineering from behavioral therapist, because I was making so little money and I could barely support myself . For outpatient therapy we are paid so little and company always cut our hours .....Mom had to work continuously to pay for a lot of our family expense and I felt really bad to let her handle all the financial pressure by herself. I am studying very hard so I can give her a better life , and I can take away her financial burden. Right now I don't even have money to pay for her surgery but I'm working to change this situation.
I know that is a lot of information about my life I actually feel safer to talk about this here than in real life, because I don't want people to know too much about my life.
anyways , ttyl forum.
Hopefully everything will get better.
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170.0 lb
Lost so far: 10.0 lb.
Still to go: 74.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 2.3 lb a week
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